Spot On, David.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away

David Archuleta - Crush

David Cook

I liked him from the beginning. I liked his genre and his voice and his style. He reminded me of Bo (whom I miss, by the way. I wish he'd make a better sophomore album!). He's kinda somewhere between Daughtry and Bo, but at the same time totally different. D'you get me? But anyway, there was one Top 24 episode when he kind of turned me off. He came across as arrogant when he talked back to Simon about his comments. I mean, yeah, Simon could be harsh often, but he knows what he is talking about. Besides, his, er, comparisons are the best! Meatless burger is at the top of my mind right now. Haha.

Anyway, David Cook is just AWESOME. Yeah I was kind of turned off with his attitude, I mean, because Chris Daughtry and Bo were just as talented but really humble, but now David has shown what he can do and no weird attitude could erase the greatness of his version of Billie Jean and Always Be My Baby. The moment I heard him sing Billie Jean, I was like, "That's it. That's what I've been looking for this season." Anyway, even if he shows Simon attitude again, I'd still buy his future album. Maybe that's really the way he is. I mean, I wouldn't want him to be fake-humbling. Gets?

But by far, David's rendition of Always Be My Baby is the best I've ever heard. I totally agree with Paula that it could be a movie soundtrack right now. I can really see it in a movie. I just hope that if ever they use it, they'd use it in a good movie. Lol. I listened to that song for like 100 times today, maybe even more. I was at work for 9 hours and I had that song looped all throughout. Except for a couple of hours of Maroon 5. Still, I can't get enough of it!

I was gonna put up the song here so you people can have a listen, but the site where I used to upload my music to somehow got reformatted or something (if you'd check out the tag "song of the moment", you'd see that all the music's not working. argh.). Anyway, check out the "video" version. It's worth the loading wait!!!

Voldemort, Voldemort, oooh Voldy-voldy--voldy-voldemort!

A couple of week s ago, I downloaded about 13GB worth of Christmas videos. From classic holiday flicks like A Christmas Carol to modern Hollywood products like Santa Clause (1 to 3) to silly cartoon specials like Johnny Bravo Christmas, I have them all, safely tucked inside a folder here in my fast-diminishing Drive C. I really need a new hard disk.

So, as my quest for Christmas videos went on, I stumbled upon these awesome videos which I've almost forgotten about (and I feel really guilty about that. I mean, just because the books are all out doesn't mean that I could forget...what kind of fan am I?! --crazy--).

POTTER PUPPET PALS!!!

I absolutely loved the first two clips they made: Bothering Snape and Trouble at Hogwarts. But guess what, they have new ones! They even did a live performance some time early this month. Of course it's somewhere in the US of A but thank goodness for technology, right?

You can just check out my Multiply site for the rest of the videos, but I'm gonna post my favorite of all.

Potter Puppet Pals in
THE MYSTERIOUS TICKING NOISE

I swear, you're never gonna get this out of your head once you've seen it. it's awesome! I'm still figuring out a way on how to make this my ring tone.

Snape...Snape...Severus Snape...
Snape...Snape...Severus Snape...
Dumbledore!
Ron-Ron-Ron Weasely!
Snape...Snape...Severus Snape...
Dumbledore!
Ron-Ron-Ron Weasley!
Hermione. Hermione!
Harry Potter! Harry Potter! Harry Potter! Harry Potter!

*I can't type everything HAHAHA I just watched it again, makes me crack up every time!

So now, back to reality. I have two long articles to edit and I've only finished like 1/5 of the first one. I also have to make invitations shaped like Chuck Taylors and read about 200 pages worth of readings, all in one day.

I'm going back to my Grey's Anatomy marathon now.

Melting Away...

Wow, so I am seeing a trend here. Music blog!!! Haha.

Anyway, it's been a while since I last turned on my mp3 player. My mom dragged me along when she went to get her dentures fixed. That takes ages so I brought my music with me. So there I was, sitting on a green, beaten down couch, staring at the dentist's plaques. One was even signed by Ferdinand Marcos. I wasn't even born at his time.

I stuck my earphones into my ears and cranked up the volume. It's nice to not hear the world around me sometimes. I have my little alternate reality. I played the newest playlist in it, and found that I really missed the songs there. I was holding back the head-bobbing because there was this dude hanging around the door. I think he's the dentist's assistant or something. So I sat there, trying to look nonchalant, cramming my friends' inboxes with stupid jokes.

Then I heard this:
(wait for about 10 secs. the song starts then)

Tell me, tell me, what makes you think that you are invincible...
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure.
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable...
Impossible...

I don't know why, but I just melted when I heard this song again. I'm not gonna go all sappy and cheesy right now so that's all I'm gonna say. It's just a really lovely song. That chorus part is amazing. I don't know what to say. It's like I'd want someone to say that to me, or me to say that to someone...

Delilah is so Lucky

I've had the song Hey There Delilah by Plain White Tees in my head for days. It has replaced Stolen. Lol. One day I'm gonna make a list of my Top 10 Best LSS Songs. Wait for that some time at the end of the year.

Anyway, Friday was a good day. It started out alright. I was late for Film History yet again. I am really feeling guilty already. And the other thing is that I wasn't able to go watch Control, the movie about Ian Curtis, Joy Division's lead singer. It was the last showing day that day at Gateway Cinema 4. But the showing time was at 12:30pm. I had class at 2:30 so I didn't go. I'm trying to download it now but I can't find a torrent anywhere. I did find one named Control.avi, but I'm not sure what it is. Please please please let it be the right one.

Com Res is as boring as clipped toenails, like always. We had yet another group activity. We were asked to explain something about the reading he assigned, which I haven't read until now. I really have to get to that tomorrow. I have to be productive! So yeah, I just sat there, nodded my head a bit as everyone else discussed. Oh well. I'm just gonna chip in some of my thoughts on Monday. Magpakitang gilas kahit konti.

The excitement began after my proper classes. Celadon CnP Night! Yey! I had to walk from Comm Dept to ISO. To those who don't know what I'm talking about... That is a really long walk. I'm not good with distances but maybe that's around 1km, give or take a few inches...

So I got there expecting everyone to be bustling around putting up decorations and stuff. But nah. Except for the eye mask thingies that we made the week before, we don't have any decors. Kinda sad, but we had the best after-party! Hahaha!

Well, only very few members attended. Not even half! Another sad thing. And only three of them dressed up for the cosplay theme. I know, my costume sucked (I wore my senior softball jersey and told them that I'm dressed as me three years ago). But we had a blast.

I was assigned to do the name tag writing at registration. I made pretty name tags yey! Now my addiction to colored pens is out. It doesn't really jive with my image. Hmm. They played my "theme song" as Retch calls it during registration. Guess what it is.

Guess.

Ok ok. It's the SPIDER PIG SONG!!!

I do love that song. It's so cute. I'm just not sure whether I should be happy that it's supposed to be my theme song or not...

The CnP video was awesome. It was silly. It was hilarious. It was embarrassing. But I love it!!! I suck at acting but who cares?! We were all in it together!!! (Cue the song... Ok, scratch that.) There were a couple of games. The Sagady-Sa-Po-Po thing was alright. This is a biased comment because we lost to another group. Hehe. The "Speed Knowing" (a version of speed dating) thing we did was fun. I think we were given only a minute to talk. And as you now, I'm such a blabber so the minute was up before my partner had to talk lol! So I changed my strategy and just asked the questions. Two of my flockies attended. I'm very lucky to have them because they are active and they reply to my text messages! But Nikka had to go home early. Aw. Too bad she didn't get to see her flockhead make a fool of herself... (Nobody told me my hair was so messed up in the video that I looked electric-shocked. I did love the background music though. Hey! Nothing You can say! Nothing's gonna change what you've done to me... *Kilig!* I <3 style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-weight: bold;" face="trebuchet ms">boyband songs. Everyone just got into the room and sang and danced along with the song. It seriously showed how old we were. Like, so old... Huhuhu! But it was a lot of fun. Super. I kinda missed doing that with my friends. You know, being crazy and corny. I wish somebody had videotaped that so we can all laugh at it later.... But I guess no one brought a video camera.

As a result, I downloaded F4 songs and was listening to them since last night. Yeah, I know, it's embarrassing. But I missed those songs. It's weird really. My mom's even laughing at me. She says that I'm already really old because I'm already reminiscing at this age. (I was looking through high school photos the other day.)

Well... I miss those days. I'm beginning to get scared whenever I think about "what's next" because what's next is senior year. And then after that, it's work... And it'll go on forever... I just don't know how life would be.

Oh well. Don't wanna think about that now.

What I'm Looking For

I am looking for the wrong person, but not just any wrong person.
I'm looking for the right wrong person.
Someone I would lovingly gaze upon and think,
this is the problem I would like to have...

The title of this post is actually the title of a song by Brendan Benson. It's a really fun song actually. It's about not knowing what one wants. Not really knowing what this life's about, and where one is going. But life goes on so one has to just go along with it. Maybe eventually we'll find what we're looking for.

Here's the lyrics if anybody's interested.

Well, the quote above is just one of those quotes... You know, one that was like it came from me. But come to think of it, no, I do not want another problem. Because how can you love freely if you know that the person you're supposed to be loving isn't the right one? Well, I guess I get the point of this quote. I mean, how do you really know if someone's "the right one"? You just go out there and get into it. If he's the wrong one, then who cares? At that moment, you're in love, and nothing matters more.

But I don't know. I don't want another problem, that's all.

Sigh...

I don't know. I'm feeling gloomy today. Hay. I am happy that it's finally the weekend. I have a couple of days to recuperate from endless sleepless nights. Although there's still Philo orals and long test to go.

I'm also gonna have a small party with my friends. Belated celebration of my birthday. I miss them a lot and it's great that we're finally gonna see each other again.

So why do I feel so weird?

I don't know. It's one of those days, I guess. Hay. I don't know. I should be happy. Happy happy happy. I was happy awhile ago. Where did happiness go?

I've had the song Scars by Papa Roach all day in my head. I'm feeling kind of...just like that. Like mad and depressed. Whatever. Mad at myself. Mad at the world. Mad for feeling like this when I'm supposed to be ok.

"My weakness is that I care too much."

I guess right now the angst has gone and only a feeling of helplessness is left. Gentle hopelessness. And I want it to stop. I'd rather be angry. At least anger can be let out. But feeling like there's nothing I can do just eats me up.

Alone again tonight
Without someone to love
The stars are shining bright
So one more wish goes up

I wish I may
And I wish I with all my might
For the love I'm dreaming of
And missing in my life

You'd think that I could find
A true love of my own
It happens all the time
To people that I know

Their wishes all come true
So I've got to believe
There's still someone out there who
Is meant for only me

I guess I must be wishing on someone else's star
It seems like someone else keeps getting what I'm wishing for
Why can't I be as lucky as those other people are
I guess I must be wishing on someone else's star

I sit here in the dark
And stare up at the sky
But I can't give my heart
One good reason why

Everywhere I look
It's lovers that I see
Seems like everyone's in love
With everyone but me

Why can't I be as lucky
As those other people are
Oh I guess I must be wishing
On someone else's star


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