What I Want to Know

I want to know him.

I wanna know his quirks. I wanna know what's under that tough exterior. I wanna know that side he doesn't show just anybody. I wanna know what he goes through everyday - the mundane and the extraordinary. I don't care if he complains about the most boring thing like the difference between software upgrades or announce a success like closing a big account - I'd listen and sympathize with it all. I just want to know how his day went.

I also want to know about his hobbies and habits - what he does on weeknights and weekends, random things he does when he has minutes to spare and also, if he has them, little de-stressing rituals done in-between hectic schedules.

I want to know what makes him happy, what makes him sad, what brings out the best and worst in him. I wanna see him at his worst because in my eyes, he's always at his best. I want the whole picture.

I wanna know what comforts him and what agitates him. I also want to know what makes him smile - and at the same time, wish that I were one of those things. I wanna know what makes him feel all tingly inside so I could do them because he makes me feel all tingly inside by just being there, even if he's in a whole other room.

I wanna know everything about his past - the happy memories, the heartaches, the embarrassments, the triumphs - everything. I wanna know how he became him. With that, I also want to know his imperfections, fears, and insecurities so that we could overcome them together.

I wanna know his opinion about things: books, music, movies, current events, people, etc. We could discuss/argue about them. I also want to know about his feelings, what he feels about certain things, at certain times, and how he deals with those feelings.

Of course, I'd like to know his favorites and pray that one day I'd be one of those.

What does he like? What doesn't he like? What's he on-the-fence for? What are his plans? What motivates and inspires him? Even a general idea would do.

I wanna know about his family and friends. I wanna know about his childhood dreams and which ones came true. I wanna hear funny stories about silly escapades and I'd tell him mine 'cause I've got lots of those. What did he want to be when he grew up? Who was his best friend and are they still talking? I wanna know about his childhood.

There are so many things that I'm eager to know about him. But simply put, I just want to know him. I want him to share himself with me because I'm eager to share myself with him.

Sunday Afternoon

I'm so happy that I do not need to see the office today. Not that I hate it, but I've been there every single day for the past two weeks. True, we went to Baguio for a few days but it still felt like being in that office.

So today, I'm cherishing every moment that I'm away from there. Even if I still can't escape text messages regarding work, at least I can think about solutions in a different environment. Feels refreshing. :)

On the other hand, I only have maybe a couple of weeks to spend in that blue room. We're moving to another location early September, according to my boss. I'd really like to be excited about it. I mean, that new place would give our agency a little bit more credibility. We'd actually feel like a real agency. But leaving the old place means leaving six months of memories behind. It's leaving half a year of friendship. As much as I hate to admit it, I will surely miss some people. Some more than others.

But oh well, I guess this means I'm moving forward in my career. The past week and a half have been surreal. I am overworked and underpaid and hopefully it's worth the sacrifice.

I remember the time when I was seriously considering quitting this job. I really wanted to be self-employed. I still do. But the past week has ignited in me some sort of purpose. I was made to do things out of my job description. It was difficult but I knew that it was for the greater good of the company. That this would be our big break - the opportunity to prove to everybody that we're capable of more than they'll ever know.

Recently, I've been re-evaluating plans I've already made before I got this job. I was gonna experience life abroad. I was gonna expand my horizons. I still really wanna do that, but it's not that easy anymore. I've become attached. It sucks, but I have. Hell, when I first came in, I was only gonna give it 3 months and then I'm gone. But maybe God gave me crazy (in a good way) officemates for a purpose. There were times of self doubt and insecurities but now I'm just chillin'. I can't imagine working with anyone else but them.

And then there's... Well, yeah. That's another matter.

So right now, as I sit here in my brother's business thinking of ways on how to improve it, I try to also think about the future. Where will I be 5 years from now? Will I have done things that I've always wanted to do like handle my own business and study abroad? (my dad was suggesting that I pick apples in Austalia for a living. Sounds nice and peaceful.$ Or would I have succumed to the comfort of a steady employment? I really am not sure right now. I hate breaking my plans but if better things could be had, then why not?

Ewan. Ewan. Ewan.

Minsan hindi ko nalang alam anong gagawin. Magulo ang mundo. Magulo ang mga pakiramdam. Nasusuka, najejebs... Iba't ibang symptoms sa sakit na wala namang gamot. At hindi naman talaga sakit na tipong lagnat... Pero yun tipong masakit talaga - sa kalioban at sa pisikal. Mas gugustuhin ko nalang lagnatin kesa sa sakit na ganito. Pero wala naman akong ibang masisisi kundi ang sarili ko kasi isa akong dakilang tanga. Hindi na ako natuto eh.

Tama na, please.

The Sophomore Curse?

I don't think this particular curse applies to the second installment of Iron Man. The special effects alone were enough go blow one's mind. Add to that Robert Downey Jr.'s quintessential portrayal of Tony Stark and all his cool stuff, Iron Man 2 is indeed a must-watch.

However, there's something about this movie that didn't give me the complete satisfaction that the first one did. At 2 hours, it isn't that long (usually superhero movies run for 2 1/2 hrs). I don't know if that's the reason why the whole thing felt rushed. It made the same mistake that Spiderman 3 did: cram too many things into a single movie.

1. The blood poisoning
2. Tony and Pepper's relationship
3. Tony and his dad's relationship
4. Recruitment to SHIELD
5. The villain, Ivan Vanko
6. Tony's responsibilities to the future

Kudos to the writers who were able to sew all these things together into an intelligible and highly-entertaining screenplay. But there were things that were left unexplained because the action didn't leave much room to do so.

1. What's with Vanko's always saying "You lose" when clearly, he's the one who lost?
2. What's the extent of Tony and Pepper's relationship? Was that their first kiss or has the romance been going on for a long time?
3. So... What's that new element called?
4. What the heck does this movie really wanna tell us?

The biggest question in my head is that last one. The first movie had a clear aim: to show us how and why Iron Man came to be. Part 2 is confusing: is this really about Tony's journey to be an Avenger or his withstanding the consequences of Stark Industries' operations or his father's revelation of his (Tony's) role in the future?

I'm thinking that maybe a second viewing is needed to get me a clearer grasp of the plot. Come on, DVD!

My verdict:
Due to Stark's sheer awesomeness, even if there were a few glitches in the movie, I give it four stars out of five. On to the thrid!!!

Testing out the App

I've just rediscovered the awesomeness of my iTouch. Since last week was an all-out stare-at-the-wall week in the office, I was introduced by my officemate to Twitter. Also, since the Internet connection there is more or less imaginary (for desktops, at least), I brought my handy iTouch and voilà! Instant entertainment. Social networking sites and games blockage became history.

And now I've found an app for blogging! Woohoo! My plans of maintaining multiple blogs have been revived.

Alright, so I'm testing out the app now. I hope it works fine and actually posts this entry.

Sneak Blogging

1 hour nalang and I can go home and watch my shows. I miss being a bum. I was able to get the latest SPN episode and I haven't had the time to see it yet. Inuna ko kasi kagabi ang Big Bang Theory. I really needed a laugh. And now that CoCo's gone from The Tonight Show, I don't have my nightly late night fixes. Well, maaga na rin akong natutulog ngayon. But even though I sleep early, I still feel sleepy in the morning. As if I'm not done with school yet, I still try to prolong my sleep as much as I can. Lol. That's why I designed the 5 More Minutes shirt, right. (Free endorsement ng SHIRT STREET!!!)

Hopefully later I'd be greeted by last week's Bones, 30 Rock, and HIMYM. Although may AI later and baka si Barney the awesome Stinson ang guest! And may WWE Raw. Lots to watch. Ugh. Pwede bang mag-absent para lang makapanood ng stuff. And I need to read all the unread and unfinished books in my room. Seriously. Ginagawa nalang silang apartment ng mga alikabok doon.

Oops, boss called me into the office. Papagawin nanaman akong concept ng TVC. Yey! Haha. Now I have to think about this hanggang makauwi ako. Gana utak, gana.

Shirt Street Wants to Help

Help us help others by getting one of our button pins.

A lot of donations have been given to aid those affected by Typhoon Ondoy but a lot more is needed especially medicine, toiletries, and antiseptics. Part of the proceeds of our button pins will either be used to buy these things or donated as cash to one of the charities. For only P20, you can make a difference in someone's health.

We will be at the Araneta Center before the finals games today, October 1, and on Sunday, October 4. If there is a third game, we will be there too. Just look for a person wearing any one of the Shirt Street shirts. For orders and other queries, please text Steph at +639178407280.

Fashionable Wrestlers

I am so spaced out today. I had a mental note to turn the TV on by 9PM because RAW would be on then. I did, but failed to switch the channel. So for about half an hour I was on my laptop with either Disney Channel or Cartoon Network on the background. Then I remembered that I was supposed to be watching something. The show was already half done. Lol. Sometimes I just don't know where my brain is.

Anyway, I'd just like to comment about wrestlers' attires. From time to time, they come out to the ring wearing regular clothes. Only a few of them look decent in them. I don't know why but some just look awkward in regular clothes. 

Here are my top 5 best dressed WWE Superstars (because all the Divas can dress):

1. Christian - looks good in formal, casual, and ring attire

2. The Miz - probably the most fashionable Superstar, hate his ring attire though

3. Batista - when he's wearing a suit

4. Triple H - looks awesome in jeans and a t-shirt

5. Edge - next to Miz, also has the best wardrobe

Special mentions:

Randy Orton - because he looks good in anything (and nothing probably)

John Morrison - when he's not wearing pants with fluffy cuffs

Chris Jericho - looks very respectable in a suit

Evan Bourne - looks nice in casual clothing

About the Cena's gauntlet match... Well, it was fine. Orton is really funny though. I don't know why but they've got sort of a weird bromance going on. Haha.

End of September. Time to Wake Up.

So it's the last day of September and I am still two posts away from my goal. Sigh. I know I can do this. I have lots of stuff that I wanna talk about but things just got in the way.

I am trying my best not to complain right now, not after the horrible thing that happened in this country. 

Last weekend, starting Friday night, it rained nonstop. We didn't really mind because it's been raining often the past couple of months. What we didn't anticipate was the amount of rainfall. There weren't strong winds, just a whole lot of rain. Come Saturday morning, people have started calling for help because it has started flooding and the water has started to enter their houses. Not long after, reports have been received that some houses have already been submerged completely in the floodwater. The occupants climbed onto their roofs to wait for rescue. It did not come until much later. Some have already died of the cold.

This catastrophe brought out such admirable traits from Filipinos. Instantly, donations started coming in. Those with resources such as rubber boats and big trucks and helicopters offered them for the rescue missions. Everyone else anticipated the needs and donated clothes and food. By Sunday morning, the ABSCBN foundations have gotten 20M pesos worth of goods and about 10M worth of cash. 

My family and I also pooled our resources to help some relatives affected by this. I'm still planning on giving to the charities and maybe also help out in packing relief goods.

I am one of the fortunate ones that live in a place without flooding problems. I am greatly thankful for it. And now I am feeling guilty that earlier this day I felt like I had the suckiest life on earth. I really tried my best to focus on what I have and how lucky I am that I have them. But sometimes it just... I don't know. Things get to me. No matter how hard I try to stay positive and be happy, things get to me later.

Oh well. Right now I'm over it and everything's fine again. I would like to move on and post about my favorite topics now. :)

The Once and Future Queen (Merlin S2E2)

Summary: 

A grief-ridden king of another place sends an expert assassin to kill Arthur because he "murdered" his son when in reality, his son challenged the young Pendragon and lost the fight. 

Arthur, only just realizing that people give him extra special allowances because he's royalty, decides to go on a hush-hush quest to prove his worth to himself and to everyone else. He lies about going on a rescue mission somewhere north, hired a scruffy-looking farmer and made him pretend to be a knight so he, Arthur, could joust in his place at the tournament without the public knowing it was him. He planned on revealing his identity in a moment of glory afterward.

For the duration of this charade, he lived with Gwen and as his normal pompous self. Irritations brewed and ended up in a confrontation every girl would have loved to be in.

The assassin almost succeeded in his mission. Thanks, to Merlin, he did not complete it.

Ah, they have started the Arthur-Guinevere love story. I think it's sweet, but I want more Merlin action. The series is named after him in the first place. Although he had a lot of scenes and as always, ended up secretly saving Arthur's life, he looked like such a background character in this episode.

Okay, maybe it's just for this one thing. After all, last week's episode was so kick-ass! 

I wonder how they will go about this love story. Hopefully they wouldn't just drop it and pick it up some time next year. 

How do you recover from kissing a prince?!

Okay, that was me channeling a friend obsessed with Arthur. Contrary to popular opinion (which consists of a couple of friends'), I think Gwen in this series is beautiful and she and the prince look good together.

The previous week's preview showed I think snippets of the season ahead. Lancelot was there! How will Arthur deal with his reappearance? And what would he do when Gwen lends her affections to this charming new knight? They did have a brief thing last season.