Happy Halloween!!!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Won an Award!


I CANNOT believe that somebody actually thinks my blog (this one) is "smart and brilliant both in their content and their design". Wow. Seriously. I don't think I've ever said anything brilliant ever, nor does the "Halloween Land" thing come across as brilliant. My head banner kinda screams TALENTLESS AT PHOTOSHOP. Lol.

But anyway, thank you thank you thank you so much to my friend Tiffany for this award. This is my first blog award thing EVER and I absolutely love it! Thanks so much! Finally, my five years of blogging has an actual reward. Lol.

THE RULES:

Brilliant Weblog is a prize given to sites and blogs that are smart and brilliant both in their content and their design. The purpose of the prize is to promote as many blogs as possible in the blogsphere. Here are the rules to follow:

1) Put the logo on your blog.

2) Add a link to the person who awarded you.

3) Nominate other blog (optional)

4) Add links to those blogs on yours.

5) Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs.

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The thing is, I don't really read blogs. I mean, I do read blogs when I've got time to spare but I rarely read personal blogs. So I don't really know who to nominate for this. Let me think about it first and then I'll post my nominees on my next post. :)

Cheers!


I'm....Dying.....*THUD*

So this is the first weekend of a series of torturous weekends to come. I spent yesterday (Saturday) dreaming up a plot for my "seditious" short story for history class. I spent half the night staring at a blank screen, urging creative sentences out of my fingertips. But they wouldn't budge. I thought that a horror movie break would get the juices flowing, but by 2am, I've only typed about half a page, and half of that half is the author's note, which isn't really part of the short story itself. Right now it's almost 3pm. I have finished two whole pages already. The only problem is that that's not yet half of the story.

Argh. How am I gonna finish this and finish another paper (for Philo) by tomorrow morning? Unless I cut my horror movie class. But I absolutely love that class. It's the only class that gets me excited about Mondays. No, I'm not gonna cut that class. I will finish this no matter what! Come on, inspiration! Hit me now!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Brand New Day

Still sleepy, and I have to stay in school the whole day today. 10:30am-7:30pm! Goodness. And I've only had like, 4 hours of sleep. Hmm. Maybe after this post I'll catch a 30-minute nap. I can't do proper research with my head like this: numb and refusing to function.

I wish I'd have a full hour of inspiration. You know, one where it'd just hit me and I'd finish a ton of work in that span of time. 'Coz right now it's just...blah. I wanna finish everything, but it's like nothing's coming out...

So anyway, I promised myself yesterday that I'm gonna be miserable only until last night. (The last couple of posts would give you a hint of what I'm talking about) From today on, I'm not gonna care about that anymore. It's just... too much. It's too much to handle right now, especially with all the panic of finishing the thesis and racing to pull up my grades before the semester ends, which only has a month and two weeks left in it. I'm excited as well as terrified right now, the former because it's gonna be sembreak soon, the latter because the defense date is coming fast. So I don't think I can take any more agony. I might have a nervous breakdown. If it happens, it happens. I don't care anymore. Bahala na. Bahala na rin siya. I'm just gonna get on up and try to be a good student and get my grades up and enjoy the last days of my college life.

I'm still sick of being single but what am I gonna do? Maybe I'm just destined to be alone forever. Maybe I'm just repulsive, I don't know. Some ask me why being single bothers me so much. They tell me there's no need to hurry because I'm still young, etc. Some, who are also single, ask me the same thing. They can't understand me because they're single like me, no boyfriend since birth too, but it doesn't really bother them.

Well, it's not that I'm desperate or that I have some sort of deadline to meet. It's just that after falling in-like with someone and not have those feelings reciprocated hurts. To have that happen to me three times in the span of 8 years simply tells me that there is something innately unlikeable about me. Or maybe I'm just placed into this world to be everybody's friend and nothing more. And it also doesn't help that I've got friends (really close friends, more like sisters really, whom I love to bits) who, when they get a crush on someone, eventually that someone will like them back. That happens to them all the time. So combine all of those reasons and you'd get what I feel. But the most painful thing of all is hoping. Because at some point, when you like someone so much, you begin to hope that the feeling is mutual. You'd wish it were. I mean, it could be, right? It happens to other people (i.e. my friends) so it's actually possible in this world to have one person return another person's feelings. And then it doesn't happen. So the only conclusion I could derive from my experience is that there is something seriously wrong with me, that's why I'm 21 and single since birth.

However, a line from Lifehouse's Whatever It Takes goes like this:

You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

I do love myself. That's what I think anyway. Maybe I should love myself more.

F this whole thing. I'm sick of it. I'm beginning to think falling in love is overrated. F it all, I'm going back to bed. Screw the meeting.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Spot On, David.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away

David Archuleta - Crush

Sunday, August 17, 2008

2 More Months 'Til Supernatural 4

I have no life now. Lol. Waiting for the next season is sheer torture, so right now I'm filling the empty spaces with classic horror films like Night of the Living Dead, Children of the Corn, and Hellraiser. I also bought chick flicks like A Knight's Tale, It Could Happen to You, Ghost, and Cruel Intentions. Since I have two more days of wonderful nothingness at my disposal, I'm gonna have a mini horror fest of my own. I have The Craft, Practical Magic and Beetlejuice here. That's gonna be fun, especially with one big bucket of popcorn. Mmm!

So last night, while I was feeling giddy because of all the free time (which I actually have to spend studying and doing thesis, but you know me, procrastinator), I decided to be a little creative and indulge my Supernatural craving.

Here's the result:


Hahaha. And this one is my LJ userpic:



I painstakingly re-watched one of the episodes (3.14, I think) and slow motioned everything just to be able to snapshot good scenes of the Winchester bros. There actually are some other nice pics that I'm gonna turn into banners/icons later when I feel like being creative again.

Summerslam 2008



Happens tomorrow! Yey! One more good thing to add to my lovely long weekend. What excites me most is the return of the Undertaker. Man, he's been gone what, 2 months? And those 2 months, for me, rendered Smackdown barely watchable, if it weren't for Jeff Hardy being there. Lol. The whole Edge-Vickie thing is just... bleugh. It's a really weird storyline. Not convincing at all. That's the kind of storyline that repels audience. I have several friends who used to love watching WWE as much as I do who don't anymore because they feel like it's gotten "too fake". I mean, yeah, everybody knows that everything in WWE is kayfabe. Everything's made up, even how the match ends and all that crap. But I've been watching it since I was what, 4 or 5, and I'm now 21, and I really believe that the past kayfabe-ness is more realistic. I don't know why, maybe past wrestlers are just better actors. But as I said, storylines like that of Edge and Vickie really ruin things. I mean, they did a similar thing with Triple H and Stephanie McMahon, right? That was way more believable. And if I may revert to RAW, the thing with Santino and Beth Phoenix, although I think it's kinda cute, really comes across as something they're pushed into doing. Even the fake kissing looks really fake, unlike the Jeff Hardy + Trish Stratus thing which looked really natural even if it's totally fake.

Ah, this is why I want to be a creative writer. I wanna revamp the whole storyline-making process and make it as good as the good ol' days of Stone Cold and The Rock and the first DX. Those days were a hell of a lot of fun.

Oh yeah, and they're actually gonna show this in cinemas here, that's why they're not gonna have a morning showing of it on JackTV. Crap. The one time we get a Monday off with a PPV, that's the time they don't show it in the morning. I don't wanna pay 300php for this. Only Wrestlemania is worth that. Now I have to wait until nighttime to watch it. Argh. Well at least we get it for free!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Compatibility Quiz


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Seriously?!

I'm more like Dean?!

Can't believe it.


Oh well, Dean's hot. But I'll always be Sammy's girl. :p


Wait, so if I'm like Dean, then doesn't that mean that Sam and I should be compatible because he and Dean get along so well?


I was very very very tempted to take this quiz ten more times, just to see what the other results are, if there actually is a You are Very Compatible with ____. 'Coz I've read the comments where other quiz-takers posted their results and I didn't see anybody get more than three shaded hearts for each guy.


Scarefest




Sana may ganito dito noh? They're gonna have the Ghost Hunters International crew there! And the actual Jason Voorhees of past Friday the 13th movies! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Bakit walang horror stuff na pwedeng attendan dito sa Pinas? This is why I'm so thankful for my Horror Film class. :) Mr. Ty rocks!