I've Finished!

AH!

I never felt this good about finishing an EPH assignment. I don't know why. I just feel burned out. I know I shouldn't be. I mean, even though I take roughly an assignment a day, it should not be stressful since it's supposed to be part time and I don't do anything else that's rigorous. But somehow I just feel tired. Maybe I need a couple days of writing break.

On other matters, I am now on my 386th post. It is not that I lack things to accomplish, but I would like to set a goal during my writing break. (Okay, it could be a couple of days, but it might turn into a week. Who knows?) I would like to get to 400 posts by the end of the month. I have not posted this often in a long time so it's gonna take some planning and stuff but I'm gonna do this. 

Next step: 500 posts by the end of the year!!!

I can do this!

Busy Bee

As I take a mini-break from my editing job, and as I watch the last hour of Smackdown (Undertaker vs. Vladimir Koslov), a sort of banner marquee popped in my head:

DO NOT MAKE UNDERTAKER LOSE AT WRESLTEMANIA. EVER.

He's 16-0 now, and pretty soon he's gonna retire. I'm not sure of this, and I don't want it to happen that soon (10 more years please! Or just make the streak an even 20, then retire). But I would really hate it (and so would a million other fans) if the Phenom loses at Wrestlemania. That would be an abomination. It'd be out of character and they'd completely ruin his continuity. Also, it's already The Undertaker's legacy. Do not take that away from him. He's put up with a lot, surviving that long in that business and having a super fanbase no matter what he plays (heel or face. If there is such a thing as a neutral in WWE, that's him).

Okay, rant over. I would just like to say that I'm so effing excited for Wrestlemania 25. It's a quarter century old! That is so awesome! How I wish I could be there in person on April 3rd. Oh well. I guess I have to settle for the next Wrestlemania. ANd I'm so very very thankful that we're still here by then. I have no idea if there's WWE in Taiwan.

Anyway, just found out that Batista is going to be here on March 3rd. That's two days away.

-- Okay,The Undertaker just lost to Koslov. That is so impossible. I will riot if he beats The Undertaker at Wrestlemania. --

So where was I? Oh yeah. Batista at Megamall, 2:30pm, March 3rd. Such awful timing. I was thinking he's gonna come later in the month. Grr. I have this required thing to attend in school from 1-5. Ugh! It's such a useless thing!!! I wanna see Batista!!! And yeah, I haven't received word as to who won the contest. I really hope I did. There's no announcement on the site or whatever. Come on Jack TV...

I was supposed to post this 4 days ago, but my brother was hogging the internet that night and I got so busy (still am, just procrastinating). Ah, I can't wait to finish this project. I want to bum around for a while, even just for a week. Got over a hundred more faces to digitally scrub... I'm so tired...

Anyway, here is Batista at Megamall. :) He's HUGE! And I'm happy that I got near, even though I didn't manage to catch one of the posters he threw.

Another One Down

Recently finished e-book:

• A Knight In Shining Armor by Jude Deveraux

This one goes up there with the Velvet Series. I guess I read the revised edition, since there's an author's note at the end explaining what all of it has been about. The story was, as usual, love, lust, more professions of undying love that would rival the cheesiness of Edward Cullen's and Bella's, and then sex. But to my surprise, the author actually says that it's about alcoholism!

She aimed to write a piece about alcoholism without mentioning the word itself. She talked about an "alcoholic personality", when one possesses, leads the person to seek out strong people to pull down in order to relieve himself of guilt over his weakness or something.

I really didn't see that explanation coming. Before the explanation, I just found the heroine really stupid and gullible albeit with a warm, generous nature. I liked this one because this time, it's about a female Montgomery who's not so perfect like the male Montgomerys I've read about before. Wait, why did it have to be a female Montgomery to not be perfect? Hmph. Well, come to think of it, she was actually wonderful, but she just didn't know it.

I guess I kind of identify a bit with her low self-esteem, her constant ordeal of having to prove herself worthy and her feeling of being a failure.

As the explanation goes, since this heroine underestimates her worth by a mile, she succumbs to charms of useless men. And then she deluded herself in thinking that the man she was currently living with, a reputable surgeon, loved her, even though he is clearly just using her. Ugh. This is the alcoholic scenario. The surgeon is supposed to be the one with the alcoholic personality, trying to tear another who he views as "high and mighty" down.

In the end, she gets saved by a knight in shining armor, literally. And there's time travel involved. I don't wanna explain everything here, but it was quite an enjoyable read, the best yet after the Velvet series.

E-books addiction and stuff

This was something I was supposed to post two days ago but never got around
to doing it because I was so very very tired and had midterms (and an ebook!)
to finish. And I needed sleep. (typed it with my phone in school while on break)

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I just woke up from a much needed nap. I'm currently in the library at
my usual spot waiting for my next class to start. I have my Theo book
open in front of me, a result of my attempt to do some reviewing but I
only got as far as reading the title before I dozed off.

I wasn't able to sleep last night. My body clock hasn't shifted back to
the proper time yet, although I think today has jolted it to accuracy.
I plan on going to bed early tonight: 9pm or 10, right after I finish
the last few pages of the e-book I'm currently reading.

Ah, the e-books. I've started on the romance novels as I mentioned before. I'm
a bit hesitant to read the good books like Stephen King's Salem's Lot
as an e-book because I'd rather have a hard copy but if I don't find a
second hand one soon then I'd start on it (brand new books are too
expensive to buy in bulk). Anyway, I wasn't one fill my book cabinet
with romance novels. I own a total o 3 (unless Kristin Hannah's works
are considered as those, then about 5-6. And if Nicholas Sparks is also of that genre,
then I have more romance novels than I realized. I consider him a drama writer though.)
I knew of these romance authors from high school friends so when I
succumbed to boredom a few days ago and opened my first romance ebook,
I didn't think I'd find them quite entertaining.

But I did.

Not that they add anything to my intellectual value. Maybe they did. Now I
know Viking gods live in Valhalla where time almost stands still. I
never knew that before. But their stories are always the same: guy and
girl meet, fall in lust, have sex, more sex, and even more sex, fall in
love, have more sex, and live happily ever after while having more sex.
Same old framework, virtually no character development, predictable
outcome, yet what draws me in is the kilig factor.

I'm a sucker for kilig stuff (which is why I liked the Twilight book). It's so cute when
they at first hate each other then fall madly in love with each other
then vehemently deny what they're really feeling and then give in to it in the end. It's just
adorable when they fight. Like, aw. Sapakin ko kayo eh, you love each
other naman, deny pa.

So what I'm reading now is The Raider by Jude Deveraux. Her velvet series
is very good. I now want to be a Montgomery bride. Lol. This current
book is one of her other Montgomery series, descendants surely of the
ones in her Velvet series. All I can say is, damn, Montgomery boys are
freakin' perfect. Haha. Well not actually totally perfect but...they're
just all unbelievably hot. Tall, muscular, with beautifully expressive
eyes.

Sigh.

I just realized what attraction Sam Winchester holds
for me. I've never really been able to explain why I like him instead
of Dean who's so obviously the pretty one. It just dawned on me that
Sam is actually kind of a romantic hero figure. He fits the description
of a Montgomery man completely (except that he's probably gonna be evil
and have to face Dean in the end, a subject I will pursue later).

Zombie's Night Out

I was still feeling sick last night, but my friends suddenly sent me an SMS that I've been waiting for: an invitation to go out.

I've been stuck in the house for so long and I've been wanting to go out with friends just for a simple dinner and/or movie and of course, chatter.

So I jumped at the chance even though my head was still ceaselessly throbbing and I couldn't smell a thing.

It was a simple get together. I arrived at GH the earliest so I had a look around Astrovision for some new DVDs. I so want that special collector's edition of the Nightmare Before Christmas. And then I went to The Shops in search for shoes. I'm in a sort of shoe frenzy stage right now. Then I bought yellow nail polish which I have on now. It's really yellow. As in. I wanted to but the bright pink, bright orange, light blue, neon green, and black one but they cost 99php each. Don't need them that much so maybe next time. Then I proceeded to my search for shoes. Sadly, there are only two shoe stores there and they didn't carry anything I wanted. I have to get to Schu or Pretty Fit soon, when I still have money. Lol.

So then, having not bought any shoes, I went to Bayo and checked out the racks. I've grown fatter over the break so I was doubtful that anything would fit me. I really wanted a dress-like top (or a dress indeed) but they were a bit too costly for me (but I didn't try on any of them so maybe if one fits, I'd really get it). A couple of pieces interested me but my "saving" instinct kicked in so I only chose one: a black 3/4 sleeved knitted v-neck top. It's cute, and I've been wanting a nice black top for some time now, although I would much love wearing those bright greens and reds that Bayo offer. Next month, when my credit card refreshes. My dad might as well take it from me if I spend another thousand on clothes. He's been asking me to get my own card (mine is an extension of his and he pays for whatever I swipe so... poor him.)

Anyway, as I mentioned before, I'd be spending a little over a month in Taiwan so I'm trying to save up for shopping money. I just really hope there are clothes there that fit me because as far as I know, Taiwanese women are slight little things. As if the language barrier isn't sucky enough, no shopping prospects would make it hell. Although a really really fast internet connection would make up for it. I'd better get a whole chunk of free memory.

So now I'm going to spend the last night of my Christmas vacation still blowing my nose every 3 seconds. I think feel my brain starting to squeeze through my nostrils. And the sides of my nose feel raw from chafing against tissue. Oh well.

E-books read completely so far:

• Until Forever - Johanna Lindsey
• Highland Velvet - Jude Deveraux

Still working on World War Z. I think I can finish that tonight.

Hello 2009!

Another year has come.

Awesome.

I don't know if I mean that or if I'm being sarcastic. Well, another year's another 365 1/4 days to make my life, myself, into something. And I truly am thankful that I'm still alive, that I'm given the chance to last this long.

It's just that things will happen this year that'll change my life.

They scare the heck outta me.

Of course, the first big thing is graduating. I'd officially be unemployed in three months. I've been a student since I was 3 years old. What will I do now?

The second thing I'm anticipating/dreading is my month-and-a-half in Taiwan. No offense to the country and its inhabitants or whoever loves it, but I have never dreamed of going to Taiwan (not even in the brief months of my F4 fever). It's to take care of my dad while he gets therapy there. I'm not complaining about that. I think it'd be a valuable experience for me to live away from home and do virtually everything myself. I have to do laundry, clean the house, iron maybe, go but food... I'd be okay with cooking, but please, don't expect me to go to a wet market (palengke) over there. I don't even do that here. Supermarket, always. And I'd have a hell of a time bargaining in Mandarin. Ah, the language. I've studied it for almost 15 years; you'd think I'd be uber fluent by now. But no. I think my knowledge of that language has depleted in the course of my spending 4 years without it in my face, 24/7 as it used to. I'd also have to speak with my aunt (whom we're going to live with) in Mandarin and/or Fukkien because she can't speak (nor understand, I think) Tagalog or English. And then I'd have to go entertain myself while my dad is in the therapy place. My aunt tells me there's a mall near the house we're gonna stay in, and I could spend two whole days and not see all of it. That excited me. But this could be a potential letdown. Will I be given shopping money?

Wait, would I have to get a job there?!

Argh. Dad. Why couldn't you have chosen an English-speaking country to have therapy in? I could do so much more there. First of all, I could understand perfectly what everybody would say and not have to mentally translate everything all the time. Sigh. This will be a huge test of my skills.

Third thing that will happen this year is.... ah, well. You know.

I don't wanna think about that yet.

Anyway, there are a couple of days left in this vacation, and the last of them I really really have to spend studying. I wanted to start today, but I'm feeling like shit because of this scratchy sensation at the back of my throat. I can't get it out. I don't know if it's only phlegm or if I'm having tonsillitis again. Doesn't matter. All I wanna do is stay in my comfy bed and read/watch TV all day.

Speaking of reading, I have electronically encoded my READ BOOKS list the other day, but not completely. I got the R.L. Stine part and stopped. I couldn't decide if I'm gonna place it there in the READ list or just settle for the highlighted/not highlighted arrangement in my R.L. Stine list. Whatever. I'll see to that when I get another break. Which will probably already be in March.

I mentioned previously that I was reading two books, Nightmares and Dreamscapes my Stephen King (which I found out yesterday was actually turned into a tv show! Well, a mini-series) and World War Z by Max Brooks (an e-book actually). I have not finished both of them. Instead, I have added more books to my current reading list. Days ago we went to Alabang Town Center (have not been to this place in ages, maybe two years already) and while waiting for my dad, I found a mini booksale type of thing at the center and found books by authors I've wanted to try out. The best I found was Red Dragon and Hannibal by Thomas Harris. Can't wait to start these. But I have this urge to wait until I find Silence of the Lambs and Hannibal Rising, you know, to complete the series, before starting. I have that little OC-ish tendency. But hey, I found e-books of them so... yeah. The other one is Dean Koontz's Dark Rivers of the Heart. Based on my mini research, he's one of the top horror authors out there. There were a lot of Dean Koontz books in that sale. I wanted to grab them all but that would've burned a huge hole in my wallet so I settled for one, just a taste, if you will. Then the other one is Ransom by Danielle Steel. I don't normally read romance novels although in the past I have read a couple. They were okay, an easy read, just to keep me occupied for a couple of hours. Since Steel is a renowned romance novelist, why not give her a try, right? And her books had this common template for the cover, you know, a gold strip about an inch thick at the top and then whatever color the rest of the bottom. They looked so... uniform, so conducive to collecting. :) Heehee.

So right now, what I'm reading all at the same time are as follows:
Nightmares and Dreamscapes
World War Z (I've transferred this into my iPod's Notes section, had to split up the whole text into 170 4kb files because iPod can't handle showing anything bigger. Took me about four hours to do so. Ugh.)
Dark Rivers of the Heart
Ransom
Until Forever (e-book by Johanna Lindsey)

So... that's a whole lot. I'm not even including The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks which I started a week ago, I think. But I put it down after the first page because I decided to read it when I really need a tear-jerker. Oh, and did I mention I managed to acquire truckloads of e-books (if they were solid copies of books, they'd be truckloads. Heehee.)? And now I'm having this mad compulsion to go through as many of them as I can before school starts again because by then I'd have no life whatsoever until graduation. That's why I'm reading Until Forever now (the title makes me cringe). It's also a romance novel but I find it a bit funny. It's about this cursed sword that, when a woman enclosed the hilt in her hand, if she rightfully owns the sword, would summon its really hot Viking owner, Thorn, the brother of Thor. Hahahhahaha. I swear, that story is so ridiculous... Why do I read these things. Lol. I don't know. I have another OC-ish thing: I need to know what happens next. Always. When I start to read something, I have to know what happens next even if the story sucks. That's what got me through the last three books of the Twilight series. But hey, it's not so bad. The compulsion, I mean. Applies to tv shows too, although they're harder to complete. I have yet to know what happened in the past season/s of Lost, Desperate Housewives, House, Smallville, How I Met Your Mother...

Okay, I'm going to finish reading as many books as I can now, even with this headache. :)

Twilight Weekend

Grabe, I had a blast last night. Got in at around 2AM with my head still ringing. No, it's not because of the movie. Well, the movie was... I don't know, blah. There's so much more excitement in the book. It came across as a very watered-down version of the action part. But boy, the cheesiness was still puke-inspiring. When Edward said the line "You are my life now", any other girl would've swooned but man, I think the whole theater felt me cringe (along with my five friends). Okay, so Edward is undeniably attractive, but after 10 minutes of his utterly fake paleness (we could see the natural blush of Robert Pattinson from under the smothering of powder. And his really red ears gave his obviously still-beating and blood-distributing heart away), it he didn't do much for me anymore. On the other hand, Jasper was surprisingly popular amongst us. James came in third (I think Carlyle is second). Hahaha. The human-blood-sucking vampire was hot. He kept running around bare-chested. Woohoo.

As for Bella... She was... I don't know. She was a little bit detached, I think. It was okay at the first part when she was going around zombie-ish, not caring at all. It was so her. But when she met Edward, she didn't really show signs of her obsession. She was too "cool". Then there was that burst of emotion in the hospital scene. It was weird. We were all like, "Where did that come from?!" But I think her acting way five notches better than Edward's.

Of course, everybody loved Charlie. He's the best, really. And the only scene that really had me staring and kind of emoting was when Bella had to leave. It was Charlie who provided the drama. I love him.

Overall, it was just blah. It didn't suck to the pits of hell; it wasn't great either. Forgettable. I can't even replay clearly any scene in my head (except the ones in the trailers because I've seen those millions of times).

Anyway, the movie wasn't what made my whole evening. My friends did. Goodness, I didn't realize how much I've missed them!

So after the movie, we went to the restroom. This was GB3 so the restroom was nice and had a couch. We didn't really mean to but we sort of just hung out inside the restroom on the couch and dissed the movie. Haha. I love them for their dissing skills. I swear. I know it's mean but with them you just can't help joining in. They're absolutely hilarious!

Before seeing the movie, we had a bit of dinner and got to talking about Robert Pattinson. One of them said that she heard that he had a boyfriend. So is he gay? We don't know for sure. Don't really care either. Then the other one (who already saw the movie earlier this week) complained about Robert's voice as not being deep enough (the book described it as velvelty and Robert's just isn't). But then I remembered one scene from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (where Rob plays Cedric Diggory), the one in the bridge where he told Harry about submerging the egg in water. He said something like, "You know that prefect's bathroom on the fifth floor? It's not a bad place to take a bath." (We added that at this point Harry must've been thinking, "Hold on, is he asking me to take a bath with him?" Lol.) Then Cedric added, "Bring your egg."

I did a (very bad) Cedric impersonation during dinner last night and when I said the "bring your egg" part, we all just cracked up. What with the gay rumours and something else... Yeah. It's all green up there.

Anyway, my friend told me that she'll definitely remember that line in the movie. We'll know when - she'll laugh. So during the CR-tambay period, I asked her during which scene did she remember that line. She said it was the scene where Edward was pinning James against the wall and was about to bite his neck. Hahahaha. Wonderful homoerotic scene right there.

So after we realized that we've been hanging out in a place where people do numbers 1 and 2, we decided to head on downstairs and find a better place to chat. Starbucks was packed beyond its overflowing point so we went in Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. We scored couch seats and another table. So we settled in with our drinks and kind of caught up. Same same at first, what's new, who's with who, any news about latest developments and stuff. We also covered pervy professors, expecting ex-schoolmates, high school crushes, all of that. It's never boring with these people. We ended up talking about farting techniques! It was crazy. We all couldn't stop laughing even though our stomachs felt like imploding already. People were starting to look our way too, but we didn't care. There was no silence sign anywhere.

I absolutely love these people. It was so refreshing just letting loose with them. We've known each other for what, about 8-10 years now and have been close for half of them. (Note: this isn't my "official" barkada. I have different sets of friends. Lol.) They know how kooky I can get and they don't care. Green jokes are enthusiastically received. And they make the best hirits in the world (all my friends do, actually). What I love about them is that I don't have to censor myself. I could just be me, totally. I can be as stupid as I can get and not fear that they'd think less of me. We can laugh with and at each other and it wouldn't really matter. Sometimes, we just laugh with no reason at all. Someone might just laugh out of nowhere (maybe because she remembered something funny) and then we'd just laugh at that person because she looks crazy or laughs funny. And so we'd just all be laughing and holding our stomachs for no reason at all and it would just be a whole lot of fun.

Lifehouse in Manila = AWESOME!!!

I just came home from the concert. Man, it was short but sweet. It lasted for only an hour and a half but it was worth every painful penny. They sang about 10-12 songs, I wasn't able to keep count because I was partly busy adjusting my camera which could only record 4 minutes of video (I don't know why, it was 500mb), and partly screaming my lungs out.

Jason and the rest were simply magnificent. They were very energetic, running and jumping around the stage. They really looked like they were having fun with us. The whole coliseum was really pumped up. The house was packed to the brim. I actually vacated my seat and ran as near to the stage as the big thugs would allow me. Haha. I got to the fifth row, I think. Even though I didn't know the lyrics to all their songs, I just jumped along with the people beside me. Marvelous. I think I sweat off my whole lunch.

They sang my most favoritest song in the world, Hanging by a Moment. I guess it's pretty obvious that they're gonna sing it because it's their first hit ever here in the Philippines (or was it Sick Cycle Carousel? Basta.). They also sang You & Me (okay, stop saying duh). I also wished they'd perform Everything. But they didn't. Sigh. It's one of the...I don't know, it's a "swelling song". You know, the one that starts low and slow and then swells towards the end and then you unconsciously start banging your head. It was one of Smallville's Lana+Clark songs. Lol.

Anyway, I didn't get that many pictures because of the weird camera memory thing. I did get several videos though. I'm gonna work on compiling and uploading them here some time later. As of now, here are the only pics. :)

One of the Whatever Moments at Work

So far, today has been a surprisingly wonderful day! I got to work 6 minutes late (this is the fifth time I've been late, and this is the latest by far. we do have a 10-minute leeway though so I guess that's ok, but I really do try to be on time). I was kinda bummed about that because I really don't like being late, it's just that I fell asleep after having breakfast and woke up at 8:22AM! Reminder to self: NEVER SLEEP WITHOUT SETTING THE ALARM CLOCK.

So my boss won't be here the whole day which is cool 'czuse I don't really feel like working today. I will do some designing later though, when I have absolutely nothing else to do. Right now I'm busy blogging and downloading stuff. Haha. I have 7 hours to go before I have to go back to my snail-paced DSL. It's about as fast as a really good dial up. Argh.

I just wish my brother would lend me this computer for another day after he comes back, just for me to finish all the downloads here. I can't very well install uTorrent to the office laptop right? As I am installing Limewire here. Haha. I might as well download songs too.

Okay, I promise I will work seriously starting 1PM. I have two more hours to bum.

So yesterday was Labor Day, and our swimming trip pushed through after all. I was a hairbreadth away from giving up last night when my mom told me that she would also be going somewhere so she's really gonna ask the driver to come in. I thought he was supposed to have a day off. So yey, we had transportation!

I brought this huge ass ancient cooler with lots of ice and drinks. Swimming could really get someone hungry and thirsty. I don't know why but we only finished a 1.5 bottle of Pepsi, a couple of bottles of water and a sall bottle of Coke Zero. I guess we drank too much pool water? EEEWWW.

I rediscovered that I could swim yesterday. I could actually be out of reach of the sides and survive. Nothing fancy though. I just let myself float, and when I did, I just kind of moved my arms up and down and I actually went to some direction. Haha. I did inhale water often though. It hurt but oh well. At least it was cloudy and cool (thanks to Mel n Sar!) It's the best weather to go swimming for me. But I still prefer night swimming!

And after that, we ate. Dennie made tacos and barbecue. It was awesome. I absolutely love her tacos! If only I could've brought home the leftover. Haha. It;s that good. And Grace made fantastic cookies! They're big like the ones at Starbucks but wau way better. We couldn't get enough of them! It melts in your mouth! I wish she'd give me some for my birthday. Haha.

After we've polished off our plates, we laid back beside the pool and just...chilled. We talked about whatever and everything else. We even guessed which one of us is going to get married first. All I can say is that it's definitely not going to be me. I may as well be the last. I don't wanna get married soon! The earliest that I want to get married is 28 years old, no sooner. I still have a lot that I want to do. I wanna go places with my friends. I don't wanna lose my identity yet! I wanna be like the girls from Sex and the City. Free and fabulous. I mean, I do wanna find love. And based on my almost 21 years of experience, love doesn't want to find me. So how could I get married any time soon right? I don't even have someone to marry yet! I don't even have anyone to fall in love with!

Although there's Jon Avila. He goes to church every Sunday (so I've heard). That's the kind of guy I'd wanna marry! And he's cute. Haha.

Counting Down

I actually have something to do right now but I'm not in the mood. Haha. I'm really sleepy. It's already 4PM, which means that I've spent exactly 120 hours in this place. But I still have 2 hours to go through before I can go home and watch wonderful DVDs. I watched Meet Joe Black last night. I really love that movie. I don't know, it's just really nice and funny and weird and quirky and glamorous. And not to mention Brad Pitt. That's reason enough to go see it. Lol! But it has a unique story.

Maybe tonight I'll watch Practical Magic. I haven't seen it in a really long time and I'm glad that I found the DVD. It wasn't marked down like the other ones I bought which hurt my wallet but I had to have it's a collectible! The other ones I bought were The Craft and Beetlejuice. I know, it's all cult movies. Andthen Meet Joe Black is about Death on a vacation. Haha. Kinda twisted but I like it. I was even looking for the complete 2 seasons of Supernatural, but I decided to just wait for the whole series to end (hopefully this will be years later) so I could get the complete complete set, maybe in a special box or something. Lol.

I had my first "presentation" at work today. I hate that word. Presentation. It just drives me to panic mode. My boss went, "Okay guys, let's discuss promos for Mothers' Day. Merong ipepresent si Steph na proposal." and I went, "Ha?! Meron?!"

Of course I didn't write it down in my resume, but I have a fear of public speaking/presenting in public. I know that whatever job I'd get in the futurewould surely require that, but I really can't shake it off. At least today it was a bit informal so I just talked about what I thought of doing for that day. I wasn't really uber confident in my idea. I mean, I thought it was a pretty good idea, but all I've done so far is present ideas like those in class and wait for the teacher's reaction. If she doesn't like it, no harm done. Well, besides to my grade. But still. This time however, they're really going to implement it! What if I single-handedly cause this establishment to fall to the ground? Or if my ideas just sounded stupid? I mean, i don't know how to do costing. I don't know how much their raw materials cost. And numbers hate me so I rarely attempt to do math. I just... you know. Come up with ideas. Then I just let them look through them and see if we can implement it without going bankrupt. Another problem is that in school, we were used to making ads for big companies. But this coffee shop is tiny and can't afford all that promo jazz. So I had to adapt my thinking process into small scale business. Which sounds a bit awesome, but it just means that I have to be as cheap as possible with the freebies and stuff.

So I actually have a deadline! Banner, brochure, and shelf display announcement designs by tomorrow. Haha! And I still have time to blog, right? I've actually made 3 banner designs, 2 shelf display announcement designs too. And I still have one and a quarter hour to finish all this. And tomorrow pa. So what will I do tomorrow?

Ooooh! A staff meeting! Cool.

I'm running out of collared shirts to wear, you know. I've actually repeated some. Hopefully nobody noticed, right? I mean, I did wait two weeks before repeating. My mom's closet only has so much collared shirts, some even have missing buttons and all.

So anyway, I have to sneak-post this onto here again before my boss comes back in here.

1 hour 'til freedom and some food 'cause I'm starving and they don't give me free food or coffee here!!!

Night Out with Friends

Goodness, I never realized how long I haven't seen my friends. It's actually been months!

Anyway, we went to Greenhills tonight. As usual. But I like it there; it's more comfortable and more conducive to hanging out than Greenbelt or anywhere else. Well, my house is the best place to hang out but whatever. Lol.

I actually didn't want to go out tonight. I just wanted to stay home and watch cartoons and watch the stuff I've downloaded and go to sleep to wake up the next day to do the same thing. And of course, there's this whole Glorietta (a huge mall) blowing up thing. It was scary. But then I thought, okay, I'll go for them. I really didn't want to spend that much money. But I ended up spending about 600php for food. I hate it. If only I could regurgitate it all back... Hope I'm not grossing anybody out.

Should've went for fast food.

After waiting and waiting and waiting for Bats to arrive, we ended up playing basketball in Timezone. Since we all have no money left, we chipped in for a card. And we only afforded two games each. After that we didn't even have money to pay for the pay lounge. And we really had to pee. So we ended up...

Paying. Lol. Hey, that's 10php per person. I could've bought 20 pcs. of fishball with that. And all we did was leave toxins behind. Agh. Anyway, that's cheaper than having kidney stones removed.

Our final "resting place" was at Starbucks. I know we were super kaduper loud awhile ago but who cares. I had a lot of fun just talking about stupid meaningful and sometimes gross stuff. (We actually started talking about pooping while we were having dinner and then we somehow got to talking about boogers... Yeah, we are great conversationalists.)

No, this post has no "lesson". The only thing I learned was that I have to go get a driver's license already because all of my friends already have one and are already driving (except for one lol I'm not alone yey!).

And oh yeah, I got called an SSB, which stands for Single Since Birth, which, I think, is a more depressing term for my situation than NBSB (no boyfriend since birth). Whatcha think?

Yet Another Week

Another Monday is over. Well, what happened? Not much, as always.
I actually got up early today. I slept at around 2Am, which usually means that I'd get up at around 11 or 12 noon already. But today, I got up before 7AM. And it's not the groggy sort of wakefulness. I was fully awake and ready to go. Maybe my body finally recognized my desire to be productive this week.

Finally, after almost a week, I finished reading the article about Turkish speakers in Greece for Com Res. Yep. It's no use actually. I didn't get to answer the question. I didn't even understand the freakin' question. It was left hanging, for us to figure out on our own.

So anyway, I got a client to tutor already. Which is great. Ok, not really. The pay is a bit small, but what the heck. It's experience. My only problem is that the place of the kid I'm supposed to teach is far far away. I don't know how to commute, and my salary isn't enough to pay for our car's gas. Agh. I'm gonna give it a try this week though. And then if it gets too expensive, I'd request for another client.

I'm scared that I might not be able to control the kid. I'm not too good with kids. He/She might get scared of me.

Sooo... My brother's coming home from Hong Kong tomorrow. I'm excited! I hope we'd go out for breakfast. I wonder what he brought home for me.

I'm in a blank/boring mood today so please excuse me...

I just wanna say that I'm sooo *in love* with Randy Orton right now. (hence the photo wave lol!) Isn't he beautiful? He actually looks better with clothes on...

I miss DX!!!!

Melting Away...

Wow, so I am seeing a trend here. Music blog!!! Haha.

Anyway, it's been a while since I last turned on my mp3 player. My mom dragged me along when she went to get her dentures fixed. That takes ages so I brought my music with me. So there I was, sitting on a green, beaten down couch, staring at the dentist's plaques. One was even signed by Ferdinand Marcos. I wasn't even born at his time.

I stuck my earphones into my ears and cranked up the volume. It's nice to not hear the world around me sometimes. I have my little alternate reality. I played the newest playlist in it, and found that I really missed the songs there. I was holding back the head-bobbing because there was this dude hanging around the door. I think he's the dentist's assistant or something. So I sat there, trying to look nonchalant, cramming my friends' inboxes with stupid jokes.

Then I heard this:
(wait for about 10 secs. the song starts then)

Tell me, tell me, what makes you think that you are invincible...
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure.
Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable...
Impossible...

I don't know why, but I just melted when I heard this song again. I'm not gonna go all sappy and cheesy right now so that's all I'm gonna say. It's just a really lovely song. That chorus part is amazing. I don't know what to say. It's like I'd want someone to say that to me, or me to say that to someone...

Delilah is so Lucky

I've had the song Hey There Delilah by Plain White Tees in my head for days. It has replaced Stolen. Lol. One day I'm gonna make a list of my Top 10 Best LSS Songs. Wait for that some time at the end of the year.

Anyway, Friday was a good day. It started out alright. I was late for Film History yet again. I am really feeling guilty already. And the other thing is that I wasn't able to go watch Control, the movie about Ian Curtis, Joy Division's lead singer. It was the last showing day that day at Gateway Cinema 4. But the showing time was at 12:30pm. I had class at 2:30 so I didn't go. I'm trying to download it now but I can't find a torrent anywhere. I did find one named Control.avi, but I'm not sure what it is. Please please please let it be the right one.

Com Res is as boring as clipped toenails, like always. We had yet another group activity. We were asked to explain something about the reading he assigned, which I haven't read until now. I really have to get to that tomorrow. I have to be productive! So yeah, I just sat there, nodded my head a bit as everyone else discussed. Oh well. I'm just gonna chip in some of my thoughts on Monday. Magpakitang gilas kahit konti.

The excitement began after my proper classes. Celadon CnP Night! Yey! I had to walk from Comm Dept to ISO. To those who don't know what I'm talking about... That is a really long walk. I'm not good with distances but maybe that's around 1km, give or take a few inches...

So I got there expecting everyone to be bustling around putting up decorations and stuff. But nah. Except for the eye mask thingies that we made the week before, we don't have any decors. Kinda sad, but we had the best after-party! Hahaha!

Well, only very few members attended. Not even half! Another sad thing. And only three of them dressed up for the cosplay theme. I know, my costume sucked (I wore my senior softball jersey and told them that I'm dressed as me three years ago). But we had a blast.

I was assigned to do the name tag writing at registration. I made pretty name tags yey! Now my addiction to colored pens is out. It doesn't really jive with my image. Hmm. They played my "theme song" as Retch calls it during registration. Guess what it is.

Guess.

Ok ok. It's the SPIDER PIG SONG!!!

I do love that song. It's so cute. I'm just not sure whether I should be happy that it's supposed to be my theme song or not...

The CnP video was awesome. It was silly. It was hilarious. It was embarrassing. But I love it!!! I suck at acting but who cares?! We were all in it together!!! (Cue the song... Ok, scratch that.) There were a couple of games. The Sagady-Sa-Po-Po thing was alright. This is a biased comment because we lost to another group. Hehe. The "Speed Knowing" (a version of speed dating) thing we did was fun. I think we were given only a minute to talk. And as you now, I'm such a blabber so the minute was up before my partner had to talk lol! So I changed my strategy and just asked the questions. Two of my flockies attended. I'm very lucky to have them because they are active and they reply to my text messages! But Nikka had to go home early. Aw. Too bad she didn't get to see her flockhead make a fool of herself... (Nobody told me my hair was so messed up in the video that I looked electric-shocked. I did love the background music though. Hey! Nothing You can say! Nothing's gonna change what you've done to me... *Kilig!* I <3 style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0); font-weight: bold;" face="trebuchet ms">boyband songs. Everyone just got into the room and sang and danced along with the song. It seriously showed how old we were. Like, so old... Huhuhu! But it was a lot of fun. Super. I kinda missed doing that with my friends. You know, being crazy and corny. I wish somebody had videotaped that so we can all laugh at it later.... But I guess no one brought a video camera.

As a result, I downloaded F4 songs and was listening to them since last night. Yeah, I know, it's embarrassing. But I missed those songs. It's weird really. My mom's even laughing at me. She says that I'm already really old because I'm already reminiscing at this age. (I was looking through high school photos the other day.)

Well... I miss those days. I'm beginning to get scared whenever I think about "what's next" because what's next is senior year. And then after that, it's work... And it'll go on forever... I just don't know how life would be.

Oh well. Don't wanna think about that now.

Alien Spaceship Chasing a Chicken, a Pig, and a Duck

Chicken Little is on on Disney channel. I haven't seen that movie yet, and now I'm not even watching it properly. Contrary to popular belief, this kind of movie requires a little bit of concentration. Now I don't know where those aliens came from.

Sigh. I blew my orals. I don't wanna think about it. What's important is that I have about a month and a half to pull them up to decent scores.

Wow, his movie is like, cartoon animal version of War of the Worlds. Weird. I did love the part where the pig and the duck were singing Wannabe in karaoke. That was hilarious.

The orange, three-eyed, furry alien kid is adorable... Aw. Maybe if gave one like that to Angus he'd be happy. Eee! How cute.

I actually have not much to say right now. Except that the rain stopped, and that's a bit of a bummer because classes could be canceled... I'm not even sure whether I want classes to be canceled. I've not much to do anyway... Which I think is time for me to do some long-postponed reading. Ha. Go me!

Next week will be Japanese week in a hotel. I forgot which one. I so love Japanese food!!! But then my friends scheduled a "get wasted" weekend next week. And my dad's gonna come home from a business trip that same weekend and bring my brother and I to lunch/dinner. Hmm. I really really wanna be there for Japanese week! But I also really really wanna be with my friends because two of them are gonna be leaving for abroad in a few weeks. And it will be months until I see them again.

Oh well. Now I have to go off and attend to my neglected diary.

Orals and a Job

Sigh.

In less than twelve hours, I'm going to have my Philosophy orals. I still have nothing Philo-related in my head. Ugh. Will I pass? Hopefully. I'm gonna have a 3-hour sleep and then wake up and cram my notes into my brain.

If the rain I'm hearing outside doesn't stop until around 6AM... We won't have classes... Maybe. Lucky me then. :)

Awhile ago, I went to an interview for a tutoring job. They made me write an essay in Chinese. It's official. I've forgotten how to write Chinese. I now have Lanbridge's Concise Chinese-English Dictionary in front of me. I'm gonna review my Chinese after my orals.

I'm not sure I'd get the job though. It's gonna be my first if I get it. The money would be really useful. But I have to sacrifice my org life. Ugh. I really really enjoy my org, specifically Celadon. It would be sad to not be able to go to GAs and meetings and stuff. :( But I'll try to juggle those things if ever.

Oh, and I now love ACDC. Shame on me for not listening to them before. They rock! And Supernatural rules!!!!!

Back Home and Straight to Summer Class

I just got home early yesterday morning (around 1:30AM) from a 5-day holiday at Hong Kong. So much fun, so much pain (there was a point where I couldn't walk properly because of so much walking!), and so much spent! Although I wasn't able to buy proper clothes because of my size, I was able to buy 6 t-shirts. Yup, I'm a t-shirt girl 'coz that's all that could fit me in HK. People are so skinny there! I kind of lost about 3lbs because of walking and not eating properly (we were saving our pocket money for later shopping). But I guess I gained all that back just in a day. Ah, curse my non-existent metabolism.

Anyway, everything is still a bit whirlwind for me. about 6 hours after getting back and only 2 hours of sleep, I was thrown back into school which I've only been away from for 2 weeks. Summer class. Economics and Literature, subjects that require understanding and brain-processing, things that my head can't handle yet. So I'm giving myself this week to float around and kind of catch up with the flow, arrange things, and just try to put myself in the summer class zone, if there is such a thing.

In short, this week is solely for procrastination. Haha.

On a brighter note, I've got a ton of Jack Skellington stuff now. Yippee!

I'll upload more stuff about the HK trip this weekend. There's a 15-minute video of the fireworks at Disneyland which is just magnificent I got teary-eyed! Okay, later later! I'll dedicate a long long post with pictures for that.

It's almost midnight now, I've got a ton of homework (which I'm not planning on doing) and a 7:30 class... I need sleep...

So... It's April. The tragedy begins.

Yeah, it took me another month to muster up the energy to post again. That's how lazy I am. Well, it's summer, it's hot,and I've only got another week of pure vacation time, so I'm using that as an excuse.

Anyway, a lot has happened in the past month.

First thing, I survived the final hell week and the finals week. There were a couple casualties though, and one of them was very very dear to me.

Let's see...

So after that weird semi-poetic (would you call it that? nah. but it's my blog so...yeah.) post I did, I went on for two more weeks of sheer torture and great relief to stressful moments. First, we finished up our ad interviews and the plans for the finals. We made the atmospherics and everything. I still got paint on my butt. The presentation was good, we got a 90! AND!!! We got second place so we're gonna be on the next issue of ADOBO magazine! Yey!

What else...

S.A. was nightmarish because we didn't have enough stuff to fill the 15 pages minimum. We kinda winged it at the last day, around 3 hours before the deadline. Adrenaline sure does bring out the best in us. Or the sloppiest. Whatever.

Bea and I finished Spanish. The fiesta was better than I expected. We had a blockmate who sang and sounded so marvelous; I was stunned. I knew he could sing but I can't believe he could sing that well!

So the first casualty faded away right after our Spanish exam. It was my last finals, and I was in the mood for a mini celebration (because the S.A. paper was still unfinished) after I handed in my test paper to Señor Prado. But when I searched my bad for my cellphone... poof! It's gone. Again. FOR THE THIRD DANG TIME! Seriously, I felt so shi**y I wanted to kill people. But I had to move on. It's vacation.

So now I'm living off Sun Cellular. Never thought I'd appreciate it this much.

So there, a couple more days in school for some document signing and emergency reason-generating (WHY do I want to minor in Lit? Er... Hang on... *invents something up*) and total bum-days start! Saturday afternoon, Sunday and Monday were filled with nothing but sleep, food, TV (while my remote control still existed) and even more sleep. 'Twas fun.

Until the next day.

I was up Monday night doing nothing. Or was I watching movies? Whatever. All I remember was that I was chatting on YM with a friend until the wee hours of the morning. So as expected, I was on shut down mode until around noon.

I was awoken by I don't know what. I closed my eyes again. It's only like, 10Am. Too early to get up. My mom burst through my door, and I was prepared to feign sleep. Then she blurted out, "Namatay na si Dinggo kaninang madaling araw." (Translation: Dinggo (my dog) died at dawn.)

I was like, what the hell? Am I still dreaming? Then I remembered that he was sent to the vet because he'd been throwing up blood yesterday morning. Poor little baby. It was shocking. I was shocked. I was motionless for about an hour just digesting that information. I knew he was sick, but we kept on sending him back to the vet 'cause he has this hacking cough but the vet kept on saying that there was nothing wrong with him. Stupid idiot.

So I charged toward the vet, ready to yell at him 'til he dies. But I couldn't do it. It isn't in my nature to confront people. Well, I really planned on doing it. But there was someone else in the room, and it was his house (I mean, his house is beside the clinic so his family is there) so I really didn't want to make a fool of myself. And my mom warned me that I might get arrested. So. I shut up.

And seeing my dear doggie's carcass stiff, with his leg protruding from that sack - yes, a sack! Damn that vet to hell! - just shut me up. I don't cry in public, I really don't. I didn't even cry on my grandparents' funeral. But that time, I really felt the tears welling up. I stopped them before they spilled over.

If only it wasn't a crime, I would've stuck that loser of a vet into that sack and kicked him 'til he drowned in his own pool of blood.

So there. Tragic weeks.

Well, it was the Holy Week. The last four days of the week was pretty fun and relaxing and oh so full of shrimp. I don't think they knew any other seafood. Shrimp shrimp and more shrimp. Different kinds of shrimp dishes. Bubba from Forrest Gump would've been proud of us.

As the last dregs of my vacation gets siphoned off to the sunset (or sunrise, whatever), well, okay. I don't know what to say. Ha ha. I just want to do major bumming around. It's my last summer vacation! Next year, I'd have to work. The year after that, I'd have to look for a real job! Sigh. This is the last one.

I don't wanna grow up yet!!!!!!!!!!!

Except maybe to marry Randy Orton. Did I mention that he's so awfully HOT??? Yeah... He was in my dreams last night... Don't worry, it's PG-13.

Sabado Nayt

Kahit sobrang pagod at bangag ako kahapon, dumiretso pa rin ako sa party nila Babs. I needed some "unwinding", but the wet floors splashing murky water into my flip-flops didn't really accomplish that goal.

Anyway, three weeks ago ko silang huling nakita, which wasn't that long compared to the last times, grabe, we didn't see each other for months at a time. I still miss 'em.

Sad to say, the party wasn't that great. We arrived at around 8:30pm (one of the first fifty people...maybe the only fifty people...what losers, right?) and there's just not many people. We guessed that maybe it's still too early so we hung around inside. It rained a bit, just a medium drizzle, so it felt damp. It was warm. I just sat there, actually, and took a couple of pics with my friends. The emcee was actually pitiable 'coz he was trying so hard (too hard, if you ask me) to get people to dance in front but nobody went. After maybe an hour of boredom, we all stuck ourselves into a car and went to Eastwood to find some food. Haha.

It was nice at the restaurant. Catching up, mostly. 'Twas relaxing. I showcased my special talent of watching so many TV shows. haha! I narrated what happened in the 2nd season of Supernatural, 3rd season of Lost, whatever...Haha.

I got home pretty early, around half past midnight. Got home before my brother did so that's considered early.

I really needed last night to break the monotony of the past two months...Papers, exams, projects... And I'm about to dive into those again after I post this. Ugh! It never ends!

Ripperology

Ugh.

I am so filled with serial killer information right now, my head is throbbing. I hope I don't get creepy nightmares tonight.

I am proud of myself. Okay, I didn't get the whole lot done, but at least I've made headway in the research paper I'm supposed to submit a week and a half from today. Goodness. I hope it gets extended a couple more days. But that's alright. I have firmly resolved that I will dedicate Monday-Wednesday and Friday after class to do further research. And then Sat-Sun would be dedicated to writing the paper. I hope to be done by then.

I am sensing that a pair of glasses wouldn't be far from my need by the end of this semester. Goodness. I used to dream of wearing glasses. But I don't want to get to the point when I'd be like my mum. She's practically blind without them. I love to read and watch movies. I need my eyes to stay healthy as long as possible!

Maybe I have to get them checked during summer break.

I am beginning to squint when looking at something. Is that the start of eye defect?

Anyway, yesterday was a bit fun. The spending part wasn't. I'm trying to spend as little as possible. But after being deprived of Starbucks for several months led me to have a frap. At least I managed to stop myself from getting a butterscotch brownie with that. Don't need the extra pounds either.

We interviewed some people from the advertising business. It was pretty fun and very informative, maybe even a lot more help than our actual ad class. I kind of got excited with the future. Still, it's quite scary.

After that, we stopped by this fish feeding place. The fish that they have were called KOI. They look like goldfish, only bigger. They're this good luck fish for the Chinese. The first time I saw some that huge was in China. They were like, a foot long and about 4 inches in diameter. It's funny when you sprinkle fish food in their mini pond. One fish would realize there's food and it's go after it then the others would realize that one of their own has got food and they'd swarm to his direction and push each other out of the way just to get to the food. They're brutal. It's like fish wrestling. They cost so much too. The largest cost P150,000 each! I hope that fish is a hell of a good luck charm!

Okay, my eyes are droopy and I remembered that I've got this interview tomorrow that'd cut my between-class nap into half. Ugh. More fish stories next time.