Night Out with Friends

Goodness, I never realized how long I haven't seen my friends. It's actually been months!

Anyway, we went to Greenhills tonight. As usual. But I like it there; it's more comfortable and more conducive to hanging out than Greenbelt or anywhere else. Well, my house is the best place to hang out but whatever. Lol.

I actually didn't want to go out tonight. I just wanted to stay home and watch cartoons and watch the stuff I've downloaded and go to sleep to wake up the next day to do the same thing. And of course, there's this whole Glorietta (a huge mall) blowing up thing. It was scary. But then I thought, okay, I'll go for them. I really didn't want to spend that much money. But I ended up spending about 600php for food. I hate it. If only I could regurgitate it all back... Hope I'm not grossing anybody out.

Should've went for fast food.

After waiting and waiting and waiting for Bats to arrive, we ended up playing basketball in Timezone. Since we all have no money left, we chipped in for a card. And we only afforded two games each. After that we didn't even have money to pay for the pay lounge. And we really had to pee. So we ended up...

Paying. Lol. Hey, that's 10php per person. I could've bought 20 pcs. of fishball with that. And all we did was leave toxins behind. Agh. Anyway, that's cheaper than having kidney stones removed.

Our final "resting place" was at Starbucks. I know we were super kaduper loud awhile ago but who cares. I had a lot of fun just talking about stupid meaningful and sometimes gross stuff. (We actually started talking about pooping while we were having dinner and then we somehow got to talking about boogers... Yeah, we are great conversationalists.)

No, this post has no "lesson". The only thing I learned was that I have to go get a driver's license already because all of my friends already have one and are already driving (except for one lol I'm not alone yey!).

And oh yeah, I got called an SSB, which stands for Single Since Birth, which, I think, is a more depressing term for my situation than NBSB (no boyfriend since birth). Whatcha think?

What a sweet sweet power!

I was just watching the latest episode of heroes, and man, that new girl has a kick-ass power!

I can't remember the character's name but she's working in a fast food restaurant. And her superpower is kinda like Charlie's but for television!

Charlie's powers were when she reads something she instantly remembers it right? Like when Hiro gave her the Japanese dictionary or phrase book or something, she learns how to speak Japanese fluently right away right.

So this new girl, she just has to see something on TV, see something being done on TV and just like that, she knows how to do it.

This power is just so amazing especially for TV bums like me!!!

The first thing she learned was how to make a rose shaped tomato. You know, like gourmet stuff. So yeah, it was cool and all. But what made me write this post was the second thing she learned.

You see her brother wanted to watch this PPV of a wrestling match. They're Micah's relatives, by the way. So as you know, Micah can talk to machines and make it do what he wants it to do. So Micah rigged the cable for his cousin. And then the girl came home and saw the two boys watching a fight between Rey Mysterio and Randy Orton.

And guess what the girl saw.

That scene made me go, "No way is she gonna do that!"

But she did and it was awesome!!!

No, the RKO isn't dramatic enough.

She learned how to do the 6-1-9!

Seriously. I was like, how's she gonna do that if there are no ropes?! But then there's a pole and she swung from that and 6-1-9-ed the robber of the fast food restaurant! It was so freakin' awesome!

If I had powers like that, then I won't be here typing this. Lol. I'd be some sort of celebrity chef already 'coz I love watching cooking shows! And maybe kind of a Martha Stewart because somehow, I always end up watching her show. Or I'd be a cartoonist already because I keep on watching the toon tips on Disney Channel! Wow. If I had that power... I'd probably have an iPod by now.

AAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!

My desktop computer won't turn on so I've been using this laptop for almost a week now. And then I nicked the long cable for the internet from my brother's laptop. He has a desktop so hey, why complain. I've been borrowing his computer for the past two months. I had the harder time.

Anyway, I've been downloading the latest episodes of my fave tv shows...for hours now. And I mean hours! Usually they only take at most 2 hours each episode. But now it's been...what, 5 hours? I have no idea if it's the laptop or it's the cable that has the problem.

Okay so right now one episode of Ghost Hunters has good speed. I need those tv shows to keep me occupied for four weeks! Lol. And of course, as the tv show supplier, it's my job. :)

I know this is a pretty worthless post.

I'm still thinking of a way to earn money this break. I really really need money. My pay is so small that my weekly allowance is bigger. And break=no allowance. I have to sell something. My friends and I were thinking of having a garage sale. I still have to ask the others though. I did scrounge up some clothes that I don't wear anymore. Next I'm gonna sort through my shoes. Not that I have a lot of shoes.

I'm thinking of making arts and crafts... I love making things out of paper. My tutee has a humongous origami book and I'd love to have one just like it. There are a lot of useful things in it like how to make those fancy gift boxes and stuff. It's just awesome. I do have a lot of paper to recycle here.

I'll post pics here later if ever I'm able to make something useful!

So... This Is Sembreak

The only light in my room right now is from this laptop.

No, I'm not being emo. Lol. It's just weird having nothing to do. I cleaned my room yesterday and got about a foot tall of scratch paper (readings from past sems and stuff... judging from the tall pile beside my bed, I think I've spend about 1000 pesos in overall photocopying.) My dear ol' nanny said that I still have a couple drawers full of trash to go through. Ah, yes. That's my job during holidays.

So right now I'm making playlists of Christmas songs for my parents. My mom just wanna have a Christmasy feeling in the house I guess. It's just an innate quality of Christmas songs, making people happy. Although there's still a couple months to go, I've been listening to carols for days. It makes me happy.

My dad wants a CD to listen to while driving. It's adorable and kinda sad when he said, "Gawan mo na ako ng CD para mapakinggan ko sa kotse, kasi kung hindi, wala na next year nanaman."

I was like, yeah... Better we start celebrating early 'coz in December, they'll be busy with the ham-making (yes, we make Christmas ham so if anybody is interested... message me!) and I'd be busy having long tests and school stuff. Before we know it, it's Christmas eve and we'd only have a day to actually listen to these songs... And then Christmas Day would pass by just like that, and we'd have to wait another year...

Every year for about six or seven years now, I've been wishing for a really wonderful Christmas, like the ones I had when I was younger. I don't know why Christmas just started getting dreary some time when I hit high school. Is it because I'm a grown up now? (I can't believe I just admitted that. I'm effing 20, officially a grown up. Well, okay, not yet. But next year I will be.) Is Christmas really for kids only? Or is it because when I was younger, I knew what Christmas is all about and now I've forgotten about it?

Maybe it's because we held the party here in our home before, and we'd have games and stuff. The house would be bursting to the rim with people, employees and relatives alike, all with smiles on their faces. The buzz was just wonderful. And of course, I still had my lolo back then. He was really patient with me even though I'd drag him around the house so we can play with building blocks and stuff.

Lately, what has been my Christmas routine? Okay, so in high school, I'd be back from softball games just in time for the company party which was held in some restaurant. Or I'd be tired from writing all that siao khai and ta khai. No, I don't participate in games anymore because my cousins weren't there anymore to look like a fool with me. When I was little, my cousins were pretty much the same age as I am. We would join all the games and fight over prizes and stuff. It was loads of fun. Now there's a new generation of kids. I don't even know them. I can't join in any "contests" because...well, they're for employees right? And I don't know any of them. The ones I knew are now all gone. My cousins don't attend the parties anymore. So basically during company parties I just attend to make an "appearance" and just eat and drink. That's all. There were many times when I just wanted to hang out in one of my friend's place that night. It would've been much more fun.

Sixteen, seventeen years ago, I'd help my mom shop and wrap up gifts and I'd go downstairs and put them under the tree and be all happy 'coz I felt like I were Santa. Christmas eve, I'd be hanging in my parents' room watching cartoons and every Christmas special I can find. Then I'd be called to take a bath so I could dress up for the party later. Today... Well, what do I do? Can't even remember what I did last year. Oh yeah, I burnt my hand baking cakes for the people in Sta. Cruz and I didn't even get as much as a casual "Thanks". They just...left it there. I don't even know if anybody ate even a sliver. It was my best cake recipe" White Chocolate cake. Even my brother, who is my biggest critic when it comes to cooking, said that I did something right when I made my first white chocolate cake.

Well this time I found a sugar-free cookie recipe. I haven't tested it yet. Maybe I will tomorrow. But heck, if that's what they want, cardboard tasting things. Then that's what I'll make.

Anyway, I don't know. I guess I'll just stop wishing for a happy Christmas. I don't think I can remake what I had before. Maybe it is a law of nature that as one grow older, the less one enjoys Christmas. Well, unless one has a "special someone" to spend it with. Then that individual would be all set until February. Agh. No. I'm not gonna complain about my permanent status again.

I'm just gonna complain about the abysmal download speed of this laptop. Goodness! I've been downloading the latest episode of heroes for almost two hours now! TRhat should be done by now. Grr!

And so now I gotta go to the hospital with my mom. She's having a check up, I guess.

Whoop-dee-doo.

I can't even find the USB that connects my mp3 player to the computer so I can't put in my Christmas songs. How sucky is that? I want an ipod! Only two months' worth of salary and allowance to go...

Which Hero Am I?

Which Hero Are You?

My Result: Isaac Mendez

What a work of art! Talented and insightful, you've got drive and vision to spare, even if you do have a few bad habits. While you may struggle to do the right thing from time to time, you always follow your instincts and try your hardest — and you usually succeed!

Take this test >

Ok, I was hoping to be Hiro because he's just the most adorable thing... But hey, Isaac's great too. I used to dream of being a painter... And I'm hoping to make my own comic book. I just subscribed to Archie! Yey!

So... What's Up People?

I don't really have anything substantial to say right now. Just thought that I'd pass the time while I wait for the really slow downloading of the first season 3 Supernatural episode. And Smallville 7's second. Yikee! I'm happy. I have a life again. Well, for me that's a life, downloading and watching tv shows. I'm kind of the tv show provider in school. I had this "download all I can" phase a year ago, and that went on for months and months... I think it's still going on. It's just that I've ran out of tv shows to download. But more importantly, I've ran out of disk space. So after finals week, I'm gonna archive all the movies and tv shows into dvds so I can download more crap off the net. Yey!

I'm feeling kind of shitty right now. Last night, this was just an itch in my throat. This morning it was a pretty uncomfortable itch coupled with dryness and coughing. During my abysmal tutoring session, it became a fever. Slight fever, but still, a fever, and only a few days before finals week.

It's my usual tonsillitis. Maybe I should've gotten these yanked out when I was younger so it wouldn't keep on bothering me. I don't know. I guess I'm kind of attached to them. Sometimes being sick (not lethally though) is nice because everyone acts so concerned and I get to just stay in the room with my aircon on and watch tv. I like the hugs too. Yeah yeah, I'm a baby. I like it. I mean, being in a hellhole for months and months trying to be Magis or be close to being it, really takes a lot outta someone. My grades are sucky (goodbye DL) and I have the stubbornest laziest kid with the shortest attention span as a tutee. Ok, I gotta give her credits though. She managed to pass her second mastery test (like a long test for kindergarten). Her first score was 13/20. That was before I was tutoring her. The second was when I was already tutoring her. She scored 24/30. Yey for her! And yey for me too for actually getting something into and imprinting it on her brain!

She's got another mastery test on Monday. And it took her 2 whole hours to write 61-100 in Chinese numbers. Seriously. I'm proud of myself for finally learning how to be patient because I was having a headache already and the High School Musical 2 soundtrack was playing in the room and she was asking me if her molars looked like pasta when I specifically asked her to sit down and write 61-100 in Chinese...and I didn't snap. Inside my head, I was screaming, but I managed to keep it controlled. Yeah. Yey for that.


Download status: Smallville 7x02--> 81%, 35 mins remaining. Supernatural 3x01-->66% 1 hr 21 mins remaining.

ANG TAGAL PA GUSTO KO NA PANOORIN!!!!!!!!

I wanna be in my room under my covers watching Sam and Dean battle demons... I missed them. It's a miracle I got through 5 months without them. I had to live on reruns!

I'm thinking about the stuff I'm gonna do this sembreak. Of course, a big chunk of sembreak time would be for sleeping. But what else? Oh yeah, I wanna finish my unfinishable unread books. I'm running out of space in my read books cabinet, but I managed to find another place to stash the others. I'm gonna name it my "more already read books cabinet". Yeah I know it sucks. Please don't pick on someone with a scrambled brain who's in dire need of an antibiotics. And a glass of milk. I want a glass of milk, and maybe a banana. I'm not hungry... But I just want some.

It's my dad's birthday today, and that's actually one of the reason why I came close to trashing my tutee's playroom. I planned on getting home early, maybe at around 7:30 so I could spend time with my dad, you know, doing our usual bonding, that is, sitting quietly in front of the television watching half-naked men fake-ly wrestle each other. Yep. That's how we bond. No wonder I turned out like this. Anyhow, there's still a chance to grow. (I don't make sense, do I?)

More High School Musical songs came and went, and even more annoying dancing while not doing the 61-100 Chinese numbers I asked for her to write. The early getaway didn't happen.

I wonder if my parents are still awake? I wanna hang out in their room. That would be weird for most people my age, because I think 20 year olds still have teenage-hood hangover, you know, the angst phase...whatever. I like hanging out with my parents from time to time. I don't know, it kind of makes me feel more at home. It's like when school is just so crazy and I'm pressuring myself to be all magis and stuff... When I hang out with them, I feel like home. Like yeah, the problems and papers are still there, but they're outside of me at that moment. Right then, I'm just shobe (little sister, for those who think that's alien speak). I have an excuse to be fussed over and be lectured (not in a terrifying way, more like to be shared wisdom to) and really say out loud that I'm scared.

I am. I'm scared. And confused. Right now, I really am. Maybe it's just the loneliness speaking (I've been single for 20 years...when will I get used to that? when will I accept the fact that I'd be like this forever and just move on?), but I don't know. Maybe it's something else. It's normal, isn't it? To be confused at my age? I mean, I was just thinking the other day, "Shemay, I only have a year and a half to go... Today I'm only looking back at high school, but pretty soon I'd be looking back at college..."

That thought really scared me.

I don't feel like I'm old enough to be looking back at college. I mean, I still feel the same way I did when I was in high school. I'm still a bit crazy, a bit immature, but I think I've gained a little wisdom. Just a little, not even enough to merit a wisdom tooth, although I already have two. And they're making my front teeth uneven, but not noticeable enough that I have to get braces. Anyways, I'm just really unsure about my capabilities. Like in March, I'd have to go and be an intern in a real company. I'd have to talk to people. Business people! I can't even talk to just people, let alone business people! Will I have to wear heels? I trip while wearing slippers, what more heels?! I can type properly in English, but who says that I can speak like this?!

I CAN'T!!!

I'm gonna die... Really. It's just a scary scary thing, growing up. I took the job as a tutor to teach myself about responsibility (of course, the extra cash helps), but I don't think that's even close enough to compare with what I'm gonna experience out there.... in the real sharky world. Right now, I can rely on my friends to tell me what to do (because I seldom listen in class, or when I listen, I seldom get what the teacher is saying). But what if I'm out there? Who's gonna go through the steps with me? Who's gonna help me with what to do next? Because I get lost right away. I'm not dumb, just a little stupid, that's all. I don't even understand the whole SPSS encoding procedure!!!

There'll be no more group works... Well, yeah, I think there will be. But still, it's not the same. And I'm so worried about my qualifications. Am I good enough? Will my grades be good enough? Do I physically look good enough? (this is the hard part)

This post may be insecurity galore, but I'm sure that someone else out there is feeling the same way. If you're that one soul, please message me. Let's be miserable together. Misery always loves company.

Update on downloads:
Smallville 7x02 ---> 100%! yey!
Supernatural 3x01 ---> 80%, 40 mins to go. come on already! I've already ran out of emo things to say!!!