Alone Tonight

I spent today sleeping. Literally.

Okay, I was awake for a few hours watching the first season of Lost. Of course, I had to eat and go pee (and do number 2) so...there's that, too. When I got to the second season of Lost, I fell asleep during the episode labelled Lost s02e00 - Destination Lost. It's a summary of the whole first season so I just shut my eye...

And woke up at 5:30pm.

I thought it was only around 3pm or something. Then, I fell asleep again. Just checked the time and dozed off again. Woke up for dinner just now.

It's 8pm.

What a bum, right?

I guess I'm making up for all my lost sleep hours this past month. I don't think I've slept enough yet.

It's sembreak! I'm supposed to bum around and watch all the DVDs available here!!!

Although I've got somethings planned. There's NaNoWriMo 2006 too.

Anyway, I'm halfway in this post, and if you don't wanna read another bumch of nonsensical blabber, you better leave now. Thank you.

For those whith nothing to do like me, yeah, you're probably reading this.

My parents and my brother are all out tonight, hence the title. Although I'll never be completely alone, unless all the people downstairs and my pets leave.

So anyway, I'm listening to the Beatles now. I've downloaded the whole collection and it's been just there for weeks. I'm giving it a try. They're pretty okay for a really old and dead band.

Oh right, one of them is still alive, right? Or are there two?

I changed my Firefox theme. It's now all Halloween. Soo cool! I just wish my whole desktop can be Halloween. Anybody know how to do that? i'd appreciate some tips. Thanks!

Tomorrow night's the big day. WWE Smackdown show. I've been wanting to hang out at the hotel they're staying in, maybe get a couple of autographs or something. Thank goodness there's not another insurgency or coup d' etat this time. I wanna be able to watch without fearing of blowing up anytime. I'm raelly excited. We've been holding on to the tickets for a couple months now. They're not particularly great seats, but they'll do. At least I won't be standing for the whole show. I'm sure it's gonna be great.

So, I'm going back to my Lost marathon. So sorry for not being able to post something...worth reading. Haha! My head's full of Macapuno ice cream (it's actually not as bad as I initially thought, though I still prefer pistaccio!)

One More To Go...

Supernatural is BACK!!!

I've just seen the first three episodes of the second season. I must say, I don't know what to say. (???)

On one hand, it's great to know what happened next after that awful cliff-hanger. (It wasn't like, ugly awful. It's more like why-do-you-have-to-keep-us-hanging-like-this kind of awful.) At least someone is alive (guess who!).

On the other hand...well, I think these episodes are a bit...tamer? I think? Than the episodes of last season. Although the third one, Bloodlust, was a bit grotesque, but this time, the show is more focused on the brothers' feelings...*hint hint* they're missing someone.

The first and third episodes were pretty great in their own way. The emotions were intense. I have to admit, Dean and Sam were getting a bit predictable, but I'm not complaining. I love them guys!!!

I don't wanna get into the story too much because some might not have seen them yet (and would kill me for being such a spoiler if I did). All I can say is, it's worth the wait. It wasn't what I expected, but I know that it's just gonna get better.

Now, I have my last exam tomorrow. I gotta go. No, I'm too lazy to study yet. I'm just gonna enjoy my Oreos!

I Told YOu I wAS dEPRessED

Your Depression Level: 48%

You seem to have mild depression. A lot of people fall into your range, and it's quite possible you don't need treatment. If you've been feeling this way for a while, you may want to seek help.

Are You Depressed?

Dysthymic Depression, to be more specific. Feeling sluggish, too. Loss of sleep...well, Theo's fault. But still.

I feel like throwing up right now.

I need some ice cream.

My House

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Here's the personality interpretation of my drawing:

Based on the drawing and the 10 answers they gave this is a summary of their personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

*COMMENTS*: I am not a tidy person. I'm a mess, 92.5% of the time. The only days that I get tidy are the ones where I'm bored as hell and have absolutely nothing else I'd rather do. So there. And I don't think my life is full of changes..It's pretty stagnant, you see. Quite boring.

Social Life At Hogwarts

Social Life at Hogwarts

Your friends love you. You aren't well-known around the school, just within your house. You are very outgoing and love to have fun. You get decent marks in class and play quidditch.

Harry: Doesn't know you very well, but thinks your nice and funny.

Ron: Thinks your a good person and wishes he was as good in Quidditch as you.

Hermione: She thinks you should think more about your grades, but thinks you are still a good role-model.

Ginny: Thinks you are the perfect role-model and hopes she'll be like you, which means she wants to have guy friends like you.

Neville: Doesn't talk to you because you are older than him and are kind of intimidating.

Fred and George: Fred thinks you are a great prankster partner and George has a crush on you. They love that you always help them with their pranks.

Oliver Wood: Has a huge crush on you, probably because you are just as quidditch obsessed as he is.

Cedric Diggory: Thinks you were a great quidditch player and thanked you profusely (before he died) for setting him up with Cho.

Cho Chang: She is like your younger sister. You watch over her and you were the one who set her up with Cedric. She adores you and will miss you when you graduate.

Lavender Brown: Doesn't know you very well. Doesn't talk to you either.

Draco Malfoy: Only knows your name and hates you for always kicking his arse in quidditch.

Pansy: Doesn't know you.

Crabbe and Goyle: Same as Pansy

Dumbledore: Thinks you are a very bright witch.

McGonagall: You are the apple of her eye. You are excellent in Transfiguration.

Hagrid: Likes you because you are nice to him.

Snape: Hates you. You suck at potions and he doesn't let you forget it.

Voldemort: Doesn't think of you as a threat or possible ally. Doesn't care about you at all.

Reputation: The Quidditch Girl.
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This is the first result that I got on this quiz. It's the same one as Joyce's, which is a good thing, because I'd love to be the Quidditch Girl (and Oliver Wood's crush, yipee!) But I went back and took the quiz again, just to see what I would've gotten if I chose the first choices that I would've picked, you know, the ones which I automatically select. The things I picked in this result were well thought over.

Social Life at Hogwarts

Everyone, except the Slytherins, like you. You are friendly, nice, and a well-rounded person. Your studies aren't that important, but you pull of decent grades. You live your life with risks and don't think about the consequences. Friends mean a lot to you. Your friends love you because you are always the one who they can talk to.

Harry: He is in love with you. You're the one he wants to be with forever. He's tried to push you away, but you refused to leave him. Despite the danger that comes with being his girlfriend, he's too smitten with you to let you go and is glad you are willing to face the danger to be with him.

Ron: He loves you as a little sister. He admits to having a crush on you before, but has stronger feelings for Hermione. He acts as an older brother to you.

Hermione: She is one of your best gal pals. She always scolds you for not doing the best in your studies, but she is your friend just the same. She's very happy for you and Harry. She secretly has a crush on Ron, but she won't admit it. And neither will he. You're the one who's going to put them together.

Ginny: She secretly hates you. You stole Harry and one of her older brothers too. She knows she's overreacting, but she doesn't care. She hates you and shows it when no one is around. But when someone is around she acts like the sweetest little girl.

Neville: Thinks you are great and has a crush on you, but he's too shy to do anything. Plus, you're with Harry now.

Fred and George: They love you. As a friend though. You're one of the few priviledged people who get to help them with their pranks. They are glad you are with Harry, but sort of wish you ended up with Ron instead.

Oliver Wood: He knows you, but doesn't really talk to you. All he knows is that you are Harry's girlfriend.

Cedric Diggory: Him, like Oliver Wood, knows you, but doesn't talk to you. Or should I say he knew you. That is before he died.

Cho Chang: She is slightly jealous of your relationship with Harry. Cedric died and she was left alone, and her and Harry didn't work out either. She is nice to you, but doesn't really like or hate you.

Lavender Brown: She doesn't like you because she thinks Ron likes you more than a friend. She hates Hermione more than you though, if that helps?

Draco Malfoy: He doesn't like you at all. You seem like a goody-two-shoes to him. He dislikes you even more because you're Potter's girlfriend. All in all, he doesn't talk to you or have any contact with you whatsoever.

Pansy: Doesn't talk to you and hates you. Period.

Crabbe and Goyle: Don't know you.

Dumbledore: He likes you and thinks you are strong-willed and perfect for Harry.

McGonagall: She thinks your an average skilled witch, she doesn't really notice you that much.

Hagrid: He adores you and constantly invites you to help him with his creatures. He loves that you and Harry are together.

Snape: He hates you. Loathes you. Despises you. He thinks you are very poor skilled and dislikes you even more for being Harry's girlfriend. He loves taking points away from you.

Voldemort: You are on his list of people to kill. You make the top 5. Not exactly a good thing, but what'd you expect being Harry's girlfriend and all.

Reputation: Harry's Girlfriend.
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This is the result that I got 3 out of 4 times that I re-took the quiz. Like in multiple choices in exams, I read the question and then have an instant answer. And then later, after thinking the answers through a LOT and battling myslef over for it, I change it, just to find out later that my initial answer was correct. This happens to me 90% of the time. Lesson learned: follow your gut instinct in answering. So I did that this time around in this quiz: followed my initial instinct, the first thing I would've chosen. This is what I got.

I don't really like it. Haha! Harry's girlfriend?! I'd rather be known as the cool Quidditch girl who'll eventually hook up with Oliver Wood than merely as Harry's Girlfriend who'll probably be killed by Voldy, or at least lose an arm along the way. Besides, being the Quidditch girl has more attitude.

Friday the 13th

I was excited for today.

It's October, it's Friday, and it's the 13th.

Soooo Halloween-y!!!

I wasn't really on guard, waiting for something tragic to happen. I don't know, I just love Friday the 13th's. Okay, I admit that I am waiting for something to happen, but not something unfortunate. Just...something. At least something worth blogging about!

Well..nothing happened. It was just an ordinary day, really. I don't wanna talk about my Theo results. They were better than I expected, but doomsday is yet to come. Plant-buddy and I were about to slash our wrists with the handles of our hand fans after looking at the results. What a piece of...paper. Such a powerful tool, that piece of paper. It could bring tears of joy for those who got a 4.0 (yes, you, the one reading this and smiling because you know you're one of them) and push suicidal people to the edge, or at least, have mentally stable people develop a disorder, or at the very very least, call your prof a prick in his face. Hee-hee.

Still, the supposedly unlucky day remained...quite boring. We talked about the two major projects left to do, which we already settled. Good. And then off I go to review for the finals. Well, actually to get some sleep, which I am not getting right now because I'm typing over here.

I was supposed to post something interesting for the special day. I had developed this theory of ghosts...but I read an article about bioenergetics awhile ago and it confused me. I have to do further research because my theory sounds really stupid right now.

So before you leave and think that you wasted five minutes of your time and some brainpower on a useless post, at least let me "entertain" you with these trivia about Friday the 13th, or at least something pertaining to the "unluckiness" of the number 13, which is my favorite number.

• There are 13 steps leading to the gallows.
• On streets in Florence, Italy, the house between number 12 and 14 is addressed as 12 and a half.
• paraskavedekatriaphobia - fear of Friday the 13th

Check out these links to read more about this special day. :)

Cosmic Society
Snopes.com
Superstitions

At Last!

The hell week is over! Okay, so the official torture starts on Monday (no, still not exempted. DARN IT.) But tonight, I've got nothing to worry about. No hasty cramming or whatever. Ah, the feeling of having nothing to do. I missed it. Of course, there are two more big projects to be done, but we're gonna brainstorm for them tomorrow. So tonight, yes, nothing's weighing my head down.

Ah, bumness.

So anyway, I would like to share a certain video (I've found the joy of posting videos!) we discussed in class for a communication theory (was it Technical Determinism or Uses and Gratifications? I can't remember.)

Hmm.

I think this is McLuhan's Technical Determinism. The guy's identity was amplified (even multiplied) in the sense that he could lie about it to make his chatmate like him, but his ability to say, keep a relationship was amputated because he can just be cut off easily, like being blocked.

Ok, if I didn't make sense, I'm sorry. Haha! Just watch the video, it's freaking hilarious!

I Have A Tenant!!!

Yey, I've participated in Rent My Blog!!! Check out my renter's site: The Invisible Blogger . It's a really cool site of a blogger mom. A very interesting and fun read. She has five children; her eldest is actually only a year older than me! :)

I just love reading mommy blogs because they're so interesting and they give me insights on moms' thoughts. I wonder, if my mom has a blog (which will prolly never happen: she couldn't even figure out how to boot a computer), what would she write about? Hmm.

Come on people, click click click! It's at the top of my sidebar! Trust me, it's a great site with greaet graphics and meaningful posts. You'll not get bored. :)

Dora's Trip to North Pole

I hate Dora the Explorer. I hate her whiny voice and her talking backpack and her talking monkey friend. I think that by watching it, kids would actually get dumber. Nor would they learn the Spanish thing. Yes, maybe some older kids would be all, "Ah, so gracias is thank you in Spanish..." Their schemas would be able to associate it if they're mature enough. But I'm afraid that some kids would just remember Baminos! and not even know what that means (I've heard that a million times in the show - I still don't know what it means. Does it mean "Let's go"?) I hate the mouse pointer thing, too. I don't know. Haha. Maybe one day I'd like that show. I used to hate Spongebob as much, but after viewing a couple of episodes, now I love dear ol' Spongey.

I was waiting for the rerun of CSI:NY in AXN tonight. There's nothing else worth watching on TV (Ed TV in HBO ended about twenty minutes ago) so I switched to cartoons. I don't like Cartoon Network's Adult Swim (the phantom guy is so irritatingly stupid. or was that the other superguy...?). So I switched to cartoon network, and lo and behold, it's Dora the Lakwatsera. I hate her triangular hair (because I have it too, and it sucks. I hate it.) I had no other choice so I decided to watch it. No, I still hate her, but the show was pretty okay.

I got to the part where she's helping this cub (baby wolf) cross a river (it's icy all around) by jumping on whales. So I've just researched and discovered that some whales actually live in rivers (credits to the writer, not Dora). I was about to turn the TV off 'cause it's so annoying but then she said something about the North Pole. Hey, I've just felt the Christmas Spirit (and chilly air, yey!) today so I'm all ears.

It turns out that she travelled to the North Pole to give Santa a present. That was what made me like the episode. After all these years of believing in Santa (although right now, I know better, but I still want to believe, just for the joy of it), I've never thought of giving him a present. It's always the sock with a little wish list inside but never a letter asking, "So Santa, what do you want for Christmas?" He works all year making sure that good kids get presents, but what does he get in return? Yeah, yeah, the joy of giving, the expression of children's faces, blah blah blah, but still. Nobody even thought of giving him a gift because they took it for granted that it's his job to be the one giving the gifts. I don't know, I just realized that I've been really selfish then, asking for all those presents from him, and not even thinking of what he wants. Sure, the milk and cookie are nice, but that's like, a default thing to give (besides, he doesn't need the transaturated fat from packed cookies. if it's home baked, then better. But still, it adds to the belly :) ) Nobody took time to know what Santa wants. After all, Santa is also human (if he exists) who deserves a nice pressie come Christmas morning. It was sad when Dora saw that there's nothing under Santa's tree. :(

So, what do you think Santa's wish list would contain? Hmm.

What a sad sad day.

I think this is one of the most mixed-up days of my college life. I had Theo orals first thing in the morning, and I absolutely flunked it. I'm sure. It sucks.

After that, I just wanted to put it out of my mind. I didn't want Theo to ruin my day. I was looking forward to spending the rest of it in Goth fashion (although I think I looked more Avril Lavigne-ish, which was NOT what I was going for). We had our last neverwear day for the sem (and the only one, so for, that I've participated in). Our theme? Our beloved prof, the coolest prof I've ever known from his all black outfit (I've never seen him in other colors) down to every ring on his figners. And he has the awesomest pen bag. Lets just call him... Jack Skellington. :)

It was so nice and heart-warming, for me, when he popped his head in the classroom door and paused. "Why are you guys all in black?" he asked. "Sir, it's neverwear day," my blockmate replied, "and you're our theme!" He went, "Oh. Wow. My children!" He said it with a huge grin. It was funny, 'cause he so doesn't look like someone who'd have kids. I mean, for the time being anyway. He's, I think, thirty, but he looks hip like a twenty-something.

I actually listened intently to everything he said awhile ago (because I was guilty of being totallyinattentive last meeting - I just kept on talking with my seatmate, haha. my other blockmate told me that we could be heard up front, and was a bit disctracting to our prof. sorry sir!!). Also, it was partly because I was happy that he was happy that we looked" like him. We looked like a cult of some sort. Haha! And it's the first time I've worn eyeliner to school (which, my friend told me, suited me nicely, and asked me to wear eyeliner everyday, which I won't, because it gets smudged when I sweat, and there's no "special" factor if I do it everyday).

So there, I was paying attention and actually heard what we're supposed to do with the final project. We had our media experience part (which is about the video up there---> he's there. our prof. Haha. Guess which guy he is) and everyone was laughing and stuff. He started to talk about the expectations we wrote on our index cards and apologizing for not being able to accomplish some of them. And then when the bell was about to ring, he said, "So guys, thanks for the sem..." We were like, 'What sir? It's over? How about Thrusday?" He told us that we could just meet up on Thurs if we want to discuss the project, but that was our last proper class.

I wasn't expecting it to end that day. It was lucky we had the neverwear day today. At least his last memory of us was...black?! Hahah! We even had a class picture thing. Aw. I'm gonna miss that class. I felt like I wdidn't give much input in it (I really didn't) and it ended...just like that. :(

But then, Psych came. No, I wasn't exempted. How could I, I'm stupid. Then we got called to stay after class. It's something about the project, our prof said. My heart couldn't have sunk lower at that point. I thought, "This is it. We flunked. I flunked Theo, I haven't slept, the previous class is over, and now, I've probably flunked the project. Great. I suck. My life sucks." I admit, I almost got teary that time. I felt like I couldn't take any more disappointment at that point. My seatmate even told me that she did see me like, fall apart silently. It was such a relief when we finally got to talk to our prof and she told us that our project was quite interesting and that she only needed to know how we got the whole thing together. Phew. I was at the brink of killing myself with tubs of ice cream and a bucket of KFC.

Well, I actually bought the ice cream and some chips. And yey to my bro for bringing home donuts. I am so in my depressed state right now that I don't care if I'm bloated tomorrow. Maybe I'd just put eyeliner on so they'd be drawn in to my eyes, not my fat butt.