Holidays and Books

I've been asked a couple of times this break if I actually felt the Christmas spirit.

Before saying yes or no, I think that I have to qualify the phrase "Christmas spirit". What do they mean when they say that? (1) Is it the feeling we used to get when we were ten years younger, that irrepressible excitement and giddiness, and the elating sense of awe and wonder the season brings? Of course, this also covers the potential mountain of presents we get (we got more back then, don't you agree?) (2) Or is it a spiritual one, gratitude for the coming of our Savior? (3) Maybe it's the heightening of a common human virtue of generosity? To see the happy faces of the people we give gifts to, just hearing the words "thank you", is enough to make us mirror their smiles. To actually know that they absolutely love the present we gave is like finding the Holy Grail. (4) Lastly, maybe it's just economic joy, a.k.a. angpao/aginaldo/bonuses. And all the sales in malls.


Maybe the Christmas spirit is a combination of all of these. I don't know. But I really miss the first one, and I really really wanted to feel that this year but up until Christmas Eve I was like, oh, yeah, it's Christmas... I didn't even feel a thing. There used to be, as I mentioned, an excitement that starts when the -ber months do leading up to the day itself. But there's none. I didn't even get to decorate our tree this year (during sembreak I had all the free time, you see. But they kept the tree and all the decorations up in Antipolo. Then just when second sem started and things got a little bit busy, I come home from my 7:30 class to find a tree complete with all the trims. Argh.)

I guess for me, it's more of the third one this year (and the fourth one, but that's secondary. Heehee.) I don't really give lots of presents every year, not unless I baked them. But this year, since it's senior year and all, I gave lots of stuff to lots of people. Okay, only eight of them. But there were lots of stuff. People started giving away tiny little things the last week of classes, food. Candy canes, cookies, brownies... Yum! And it felt wonderful to be given one even if it's just a small thing. So there, I gave. And it felt great. And they actually liked it. Yey! I even gave these pillows on an impulse to my friends present in the overnight. I don't know. I just saw them and thought they're cute and my friends would think they're cute so why not give them a dose of cuteness right? Hehe.

Well, that's Christmas 2008 for me. I did get some fabulous stuff though. But the feeling of having made people happy, even for the shortest time, is priceless. (Naks! Matouch na kayo!)

Anyway, I'm reading two books at the same time now. I've been trying to veer away from the young adult section books so I went to Books for Less to try other authors (buying brand new books from previously unread authors of mine is a risk my wallet cannot take). I bought three books: something (forgot the title) by Kristin Hannah (I don't really know why I bought this. I liked one of her books and sort of unconsciously started to collect her other books), Mary, Mary by James Patterson (I've never tried this genre of his, suspense is it?), and of course, if I'm gonna say that I'm a horror fan, I'd have to also read horror! So I started with the basic: Stephen King. Nightmares and Dreamscapes. It's a collection of his short stories. I wanna start with The Shining or Salem's Lot but I can't find them there so I just opted for this. So far, it's filled with crazy people. And kids are creepy. Lol.

Morning Terrors

I've always considered it a gift, my ability to remember almost every dream I have (in detail). I generally like my "head movies" (stolen from Tropic Thunder. Heehee.) However, there are times when I wish I didn't. It's not about nightmares. As far as those go, I have them at least once a week. The night before last, I had a dream that I was in my high school classroom with people (some of them former classmates) and it was nighttime. I don't know why, but everybody just got up and danced the Macarena. WTF right? Afterwards, we settled down for some film viewing. It was a film called "DV from Underground". I have no idea what DV stands for. Like, in mini DV maybe? I got the feeling (in the dream) that DV was some sort of virus. Death Virus maybe. Haha. Anyway, there. And then the movie opens with a shot of a huge room filled with hospital beds, like some sort of evacuation center or hospital for soldiers in a war. There. And then the shot zoomed in on this one bed where a soldier was lying dead and a cheerleader (wearing a uniform much too much like Claire's from Heroes) was on top of him taking a bite out of his face. Hmm. Zombie movies. Even in dreams, huh?

So anyway, there. That wasn't exactly a nightmare but I do have those often so I'm not very bothered by them (there are some exceptions though). But the kind of dreams that I truly detest are the ones that scream "YOUR SUBCONSCIOUS IS SCREWING WITH YOU!!!" They're the obviously the wish-fulfilling execution of that part of your head. You know it will NEVER happen so your brain thinks, hey, let's make it happen in dreamland. At least it would seem real for awhile. Give her a little taste of what it can never be. It won't hurt.

Shut up, brain.

You see, that's what's totally wrong with it. They say that dreams are supposed to help resolve unresolved or unrealized issues during conscious hours. In my case, the dreams are what cause the issues. I mean, for example, don't let me dream that we were given a free cut in a class where a torturous long test was scheduled because when I wake up, I'd still be feeling what I felt in the dream (ecstatic and super relieved) and I'd be in that mood so when the day doesn't (obviously) go as the dream did, I'd be more upset than if I didn't dream that dream because it would've given me hope.

Am I making sense here?

How many times my mood was influenced by my dream, I don't know. Well I mean, not directly influenced but a teeny tiny factor to my cheeriness or grumpiness or depressed state or whatever. Have you ever heard of "nadala lang ng panaginip"? I bet not. That might be unique to me. I don't know if this is possible, but could my interests (and other stuff) be influenced by what I dream about? Usually it's the other way around. But recent reflections show that the first option may in fact be true.

Hmm.

Pare.

Dinekwat ko lang kay Belle (dinekwat lang rin niya sa kung kanino man na dumekwat sa totoong gumawa. Hehe.)

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Kasi pare ganito daw yun. may isa daw babae na hot daw pare. pero maputla siya kasi hindi
siya inalagaan ng nanay niya pare. tapos pare emo daw siya kasi nga daw hindi siya mahal ng mundo at para siyang patay na bata na galit sa mundo. tapos pare, lumipat daw siya ng tirahan kasi daw masyado daw siyang emo para sa luma niyang tirahan. sabi niya sa nanay niya "tangina mo nay gusto ko lumipat kay tay". tangina pare hindi nagalit nanay niya. sabi lang ng nanay niya "tangina mo pare wag ka magmura".

so lumipat siya sa tatay niya di ba? pagkarating niya dun sabi niya, "tangina erpat bakit maulan dito?" sabi ng erpat niya "gago "bur" months na! malamig na tangena". so nagtaka yung babaeng simula ngayon ay tatawagin na lang nating "babaeng maputla at emo".

so pumasok siya sa school di ba? binigyan siya ng truck ng tatay niya pare. sabi ng tatay niya "tangina mo sa'yo na tong truck ko". sabi niya "salamat tay".

pagkarating niyang school tsong, may nakita siyang lalaking mukhang bangkay pero pogi. sakto. pogi pero mukhang bangkay. sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "hot pare".

nung chem lab na ni babaeng maputla at emo, natagpuan niyang lab partner niya yung poging bangkay. so nung tinignan siya nung poging bangaky, ang asim ng mukha nito. mukhang nandiri ata kay babaeng maputla at emo.

sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina KA". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina NIYA oh *tumuro sa teacher nila*". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "oo nga noh. TANGINA MO". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo gago bampira ako". tapos naghubad siya ng damit at kumintab ang katawan niya kasi linagyan niya ng glitters ang abs niya kasi tigas siya at ganun na ang mga tigas ngayon na nagpupuntang emba.

so pare na in love si babaeng maputla at emo kay poging bangkay. si poging bangkay naman sige lang kasi sex din daw yun. so ayun. angshweet shweet nila.

"eow poh... ahihihihi"

"bebe mwahugz,..... ^^,"

so tapos nun nagpunta sila sa damuhan kasi.... alam mo na. tapos sabi ni poging bangkay "ikaw na buhay ko ngayon" sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina mo gago patay ka na". sabi ni poging bangkay "TANGINA KA".

tapos nagsex sila

so basically pare yun lang yung mga importanteng nangyari sa buong storya. intense noh? kaya pala nahhook lahat ng tao.

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Twilight Weekend

Grabe, I had a blast last night. Got in at around 2AM with my head still ringing. No, it's not because of the movie. Well, the movie was... I don't know, blah. There's so much more excitement in the book. It came across as a very watered-down version of the action part. But boy, the cheesiness was still puke-inspiring. When Edward said the line "You are my life now", any other girl would've swooned but man, I think the whole theater felt me cringe (along with my five friends). Okay, so Edward is undeniably attractive, but after 10 minutes of his utterly fake paleness (we could see the natural blush of Robert Pattinson from under the smothering of powder. And his really red ears gave his obviously still-beating and blood-distributing heart away), it he didn't do much for me anymore. On the other hand, Jasper was surprisingly popular amongst us. James came in third (I think Carlyle is second). Hahaha. The human-blood-sucking vampire was hot. He kept running around bare-chested. Woohoo.

As for Bella... She was... I don't know. She was a little bit detached, I think. It was okay at the first part when she was going around zombie-ish, not caring at all. It was so her. But when she met Edward, she didn't really show signs of her obsession. She was too "cool". Then there was that burst of emotion in the hospital scene. It was weird. We were all like, "Where did that come from?!" But I think her acting way five notches better than Edward's.

Of course, everybody loved Charlie. He's the best, really. And the only scene that really had me staring and kind of emoting was when Bella had to leave. It was Charlie who provided the drama. I love him.

Overall, it was just blah. It didn't suck to the pits of hell; it wasn't great either. Forgettable. I can't even replay clearly any scene in my head (except the ones in the trailers because I've seen those millions of times).

Anyway, the movie wasn't what made my whole evening. My friends did. Goodness, I didn't realize how much I've missed them!

So after the movie, we went to the restroom. This was GB3 so the restroom was nice and had a couch. We didn't really mean to but we sort of just hung out inside the restroom on the couch and dissed the movie. Haha. I love them for their dissing skills. I swear. I know it's mean but with them you just can't help joining in. They're absolutely hilarious!

Before seeing the movie, we had a bit of dinner and got to talking about Robert Pattinson. One of them said that she heard that he had a boyfriend. So is he gay? We don't know for sure. Don't really care either. Then the other one (who already saw the movie earlier this week) complained about Robert's voice as not being deep enough (the book described it as velvelty and Robert's just isn't). But then I remembered one scene from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (where Rob plays Cedric Diggory), the one in the bridge where he told Harry about submerging the egg in water. He said something like, "You know that prefect's bathroom on the fifth floor? It's not a bad place to take a bath." (We added that at this point Harry must've been thinking, "Hold on, is he asking me to take a bath with him?" Lol.) Then Cedric added, "Bring your egg."

I did a (very bad) Cedric impersonation during dinner last night and when I said the "bring your egg" part, we all just cracked up. What with the gay rumours and something else... Yeah. It's all green up there.

Anyway, my friend told me that she'll definitely remember that line in the movie. We'll know when - she'll laugh. So during the CR-tambay period, I asked her during which scene did she remember that line. She said it was the scene where Edward was pinning James against the wall and was about to bite his neck. Hahahaha. Wonderful homoerotic scene right there.

So after we realized that we've been hanging out in a place where people do numbers 1 and 2, we decided to head on downstairs and find a better place to chat. Starbucks was packed beyond its overflowing point so we went in Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf. We scored couch seats and another table. So we settled in with our drinks and kind of caught up. Same same at first, what's new, who's with who, any news about latest developments and stuff. We also covered pervy professors, expecting ex-schoolmates, high school crushes, all of that. It's never boring with these people. We ended up talking about farting techniques! It was crazy. We all couldn't stop laughing even though our stomachs felt like imploding already. People were starting to look our way too, but we didn't care. There was no silence sign anywhere.

I absolutely love these people. It was so refreshing just letting loose with them. We've known each other for what, about 8-10 years now and have been close for half of them. (Note: this isn't my "official" barkada. I have different sets of friends. Lol.) They know how kooky I can get and they don't care. Green jokes are enthusiastically received. And they make the best hirits in the world (all my friends do, actually). What I love about them is that I don't have to censor myself. I could just be me, totally. I can be as stupid as I can get and not fear that they'd think less of me. We can laugh with and at each other and it wouldn't really matter. Sometimes, we just laugh with no reason at all. Someone might just laugh out of nowhere (maybe because she remembered something funny) and then we'd just laugh at that person because she looks crazy or laughs funny. And so we'd just all be laughing and holding our stomachs for no reason at all and it would just be a whole lot of fun.

Super Termites!

Not the title of a new superhero movie. Although it could be a villain for the next Spiderman movie (if there's one; three is enough for me though).

I'm in the car on my way to school right now and while waiting for traffic to move, I noticed the van in front of me with this signage on the back door.



Have I been so out of touch with the world of biology that I didn't hear of the birth of a new (maybe mutant!) species of termites? I wonder why they'd be called "super" termites? Could they like, chew through half a house under a minute? Do they have cape-like wings? Or maybe they have little Ts enclosed in pentagons on their bellies?

I'm sorry for those whose homes require this kind of super service.

Insomnia Attack #1

So I'm trying to fall asleep with my tv on. Star movies. Planet of the
Apes. I've seen parts of that movie a number of times, but never as a
whole. Tonight is my first time to see the (almost) beginning. If I
remember correctly, that movie (the remake) didn't receive particularly
good reviews. Hmm. Whatever. I'd have to see it as a whole first. All I
can say for now is that Mark |Wahlberg is just absolutely gorgeous. And
I can't get over how much one of the apes (a female, at that) looks
like the prince of pop and all-around halloween mask, michael jackson.

Random Chat

I haven't used my MSN messenger in like... forever. I think I've uninstalled the one in my own computer a long time ago. And since my wonderfully flat monitor decided to take up smoking and smelling like a burning tire, it had to go to monitor rehab. So I've been stuck with borrowing my brother's computer for weeks now. And this one still has an MSN messenger which signs in automatically.

So awhile ago I've given up on tossing and turning and thought that a few rounds of Destruct-O-Match (I know, Neopets is silly, but that game is actually somewhat cathartic) would lull me to sleep finally (although this is contrary to the medical fact that using the computer before bed keeps one from sleeping because it makes the brain more active, etc. I don't know. My eyelids are actually getting heavier as I type this). So I logged on and started destroying virtual prehistoric bricks.

Then this IM popped up. Someone I don't know. Forgot to exit the MSN messenger. I was planning on ignoring it but then I had nothing else to do so I thought, why not? So normal procedures followed, then we ended up talking about poop. Literally. The person (I have no idea if it's a guy or a girl) said that he/she didn't go to school today because he/she has diarrhea and that he/she had an "accident" in the car with his/her aunt as a witness. I retorted with an anecdote about my brother and his pants. Let's just leave it at that. Lol. I have no idea how, but we spent half an hour discussing uncontrollable defecation and the necessity of diapers during sleep. And I actually had fun chatting with him/her.

This just proves how much I enjoy being brainless.

I guess this was a refreshing change from my perception of people who randomly IMs me in MSN. The topic choice was slightly inappropriate (but I guess people generally feel comfortable talking about gross stuff with strangers since they have no idea who they and hence cannot embarrass them with the story everytime they meet), but at least it wasn't pervy.

Last Sembreak Ko Na 'To

Wala lang, naisip ko lang na ito na ang kahuli-hulihang sembreak ko as a college student. Shet. Ang dami nang lasts. Siyempre marami ring magiging firsts pagkatapos nito, pero sorry, pesimista ako today. Hehe.

Napuna ko lang na grabe, hindi talaga ako gaanong nagblog ngayong 2008. 37 posts lang for the whole year?! It's already October! Hahaha. Kahit isama pa yun posts ko sa LJ ko, mga 50 posts lang in all. Ah, crap. I have to make up for that this break.

Sa Halloween Blog-a-thon ko nalang babawiin. :)

Anyway, ewan ko, pero ang weird ng feeling ng walang ginagawa. Haha. Sanayan lang ito. Malamang pagdating ng November mawiwirduhan ako sa feeling na kelangan na ulit bumangon at mag-aral. Shet. Last sem ko na 'yon. Bakit ganon?!

Last weekend nandun kami sa bahay ni Joyce nag-overnight at movie marathon. Well, actually, nag-Supernatural-marathon nung una hehe tapos naging movies na. We're trying to infect more people with the Supernatural virus. Swear. Watch it. It's good. So ayun.

Di ko na masyadong maalala anong movies pinanood namin. Hmm. Wait. Ah, P.S. I Love You, Teeth, Gravedancers, Mean Girls, and Kung Fu Panda. Meron pa yatang isa pa, pero hindi ko maalala. Pero yan na yun. Hehe. Fangirl ako ni Gerald Butler. Hehe.

Nakakatawa talaga nung kainan parts. Mga 3:30 kasi kami dumating sa bahay ni Joyce. Before that, ay nako, I was all over Metro Manila. Haha. Had to submit my final project sa Comm Dept at 10AM, tapos had to rush to my friend's graduation sa PICC (we got there at 12NN, tapos na yun graduation. whek. nagpichuran nalang kami.), then had to rush back to Katipunan (na biglang naging sa Libis nalang pala), have lunch with ADMU friends, then go to Joyce's house na dahil gagamitin pa ni Mama yun kotse na maghahatid sa amin doon.

So ayun. The dinner part. Wala lang, nakakatawa lang kasi we couldn't sustain a topic for more than 15 minutes. Una, galit-galit muna sa kainan. parang hindi pa nabusog sa sandamukal na chips na kinain while marathon-ing. May magbibigay ng topic, pag-uusapan konti, tapos tapos na. Haha. Hindi ba ang sabi nila kapag tumatahimik ang isang usapan may anghel daw na dumadaan? Well if that were the case, eh di pinagtitripan kami ng mga anghel nung gabing yon. Hahaha. Kung ano-ano nang topics ang napag-usapan, to the point na nalaman namin anong klaseng underwear ang sinusuot ng dalawa naming kasamang boys (boxers, btw). Kinda too much info ba? Hehe. At least you don't have to deal with the mental images I had. Eugh.

Pictures of this night can be found on my Multiply site. Kung friend kita. Hehe.

Ang cute cute ng puppy ni Joyce. Well, di na yata siya puppy, pero mukha pa rin siyang baby. Eeeee. Cute. Tisha ang name niya; she's a Shih Tzu (tama ba spelling?). Ang likot niya grabeh! As in kung naglalakad ka hinahabol niya yung feet mo tapos nung nakaupo na kami lahat sumisiksik siya sa amin. Tapos nagbebeg siya nung kumakain kami ng chips. Tapos ang bango bango niya kasi sosyal siya, Vaseline ang shampoo! Haha. Basta. She's so cute. I miss her already. Kahit nagwiwi siya sa immaculately clean floor ng sala ni Joyce, cute pa rin siya.

I ended up sleeping on the air cushion thingy. Basta yun kailangan pump-an ng air. Kaso hindi pala nasara mabuti yun isang vent kaya pag gising ko nung umaga, flat na. Haha. Eh mukha pa naman akong bulldozer kasi malikot ako matulog ikot ako nang ikot. Buti nga wala akong katabi kundi nadaganan ko na eh. Haha.

Joyce's Mom: O Tep, hindi ba sumakit ang likod mo? Matigas yun sahig.
Tep: OK lang po, Auntie, malambot naman ako eh. :)

Haha. Classic Tep kabangagan. And get this, since balak namin talaga mag-inuman and I forgot to bring the Jell-O shots, may wine na hinanda para sa amin si Auntie at Uncle. Naks. I love them already. At sosyal talaga. Wine. Kaso lang nga hindi kami nakainom noong gabi kasi... ewan ko nga ba bakit. Basta. So nung breakfast nalang kami uminom, nag-cheers and stuff. Hahaha.

As usual, after happy days like this one, sad na pag uwian. Ewan ko. I don't wanna be freaking emo right now kasi I promised myself that I'm gonna use this sembreak to fix myself and be happy. Let's just say I had an emo moment nung pauwi. Yun na yun. Hehe.

So ngayon, bum. Bum bum bum. Nakakatamad nga maging bum eh. Gusto ko nalang lumabas lagi at manood ng movie. Yung problema eh sembreak = no allowance. Yun mga may utang sa akin di pa nagbabayad. Tapos may utang pa ako sa iba. Argh. Ano nang ipangmomovies ko?!

Tapos ang bagal pa madownload ng mga bagay bagay. :(

Didn't Feel Like A Weekend At All

I'm so thankful that I've finally gotten my much needed long nap a couple of hours ago. I still have a trillion things to do now but tonight, I'm taking it slow or else I might just.. I don't know, evaporate.

So last Friday, I came to school early for thesis meeting. Then later that day, I stayed until 8pm for history report meeting. Although I'm kind of happy about that 'coz it was a pretty productive one. So that night I went home, crashed in my bed while brainstorming for a tvc idea for class the next day.

I got up at around 6am the next morning to a non-idea-generating brain. So had to sit around and stare into space for a long time until I managed to formulate something in my head, which turned out to be sucky (I thought it was great though, but it wasn't one of my prof's "noted" submissions that day. arg. I have no future in advertising.).

So I got back home to rest for a couple hours until I launch into another project: the "Making History" paper for...yep, you guessed it. History class. It's supposed to be a paper or a creative piece that illustrates how Philippine history can be made relevant in our lives today. Of course at first it was like, duh, this is pointless. But we gotta do it or else fail so... There. I initially thought of writing a "seditious play" like the ones made in the American period, but I just didn't have time. So after hours of conceptualizing the least ridiculous plot my fuzzy head's capable of thinking, I came up with a superhero version of the Philippine history from the Spanish era until the return of MacArthur.

As usual, I thought I could finish it in 8 hours or less. It was a short story, after all. But the story dragged on... until 10 pages, single spaced. True, that doesn't sound too bad. But it was. I typed for 14 hours straight (except for bathroom breaks, lunch, and dinner). Started at around 10AM Sunday morning (I've written the Author's note the previous night) and finished at about 1AM Monday morning. Printed it, and fell asleep at around 2.

You'd think, okay, so at least you finished it. You could rest now.

But wait!

There's another paper due today!

It was the last day of submissions for our philosophy reflection paper. Goodness, that was such a headache. It's supposed to be a reflection paper about the film we watched during midterms week, but that was already a month ago. I can barely remember the scenes. And we have to formulate a question around which the paper would revolve and try to answer. So since my brain was basically mush when I reluctantly woke up at 6AM awhile ago, I thought of the stupidest question ever. I hope my prof doesn't give me a big fat F. I mean, I did answer the question and utilized the lessons we had (I even had footnotes and everything). I just wish I at the very least get a C+ for that. I even cut my beloved Horror Film class just to finish it. :( I missed my weekly dose of scares...

That's why I'm watching Prom Night tonight. :) Yey! A lot of people said that it's crap, but whatever. I need something to relax. I did have a movie night with my bro last Saturday. We had loads of chips (hence the almost 5-lb gain) and watched REC. My bro was such a potty mouth the whole time. I'd love to bring him to Horror Film class one day and see what my prof would do with his non-stop cussing.

So tonight, after drafting another thing for history report, I finally have a few hours to kick back and enjoy. Tuesdays are supposed to be bum days for me since I don't have class the whole day, but September is really proving to be one heck of a hell month because I have to go to school tom for a photoshoot and then afterwards, 4:30 onwards (I wonder until what time onwards is), is another meeting for history report. Argh. Then maybe we'll have another thesis meeting Wed morning, then again history report meeting in the afternoon, and then thesis consultations Thursday morning (8AM!!!) then again history crap that afternoon....

When will it END?!?!?!

Won an Award!

I CANNOT believe that somebody actually thinks my blog (this one) is "smart and brilliant both in their content and their design". Wow. Seriously. I don't think I've ever said anything brilliant ever, nor does the "Halloween Land" thing come across as brilliant. My head banner kinda screams TALENTLESS AT PHOTOSHOP. Lol.

But anyway, thank you thank you thank you so much to my friend Tiffany for this award. This is my first blog award thing EVER and I absolutely love it! Thanks so much! Finally, my five years of blogging has an actual reward. Lol.

THE RULES:

Brilliant Weblog is a prize given to sites and blogs that are smart and brilliant both in their content and their design. The purpose of the prize is to promote as many blogs as possible in the blogsphere. Here are the rules to follow:

1) Put the logo on your blog.

2) Add a link to the person who awarded you.

3) Nominate other blog (optional)

4) Add links to those blogs on yours.

5) Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs.

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The thing is, I don't really read blogs. I mean, I do read blogs when I've got time to spare but I rarely read personal blogs. So I don't really know who to nominate for this. Let me think about it first and then I'll post my nominees on my next post. :)

Cheers!

I'm....Dying.....*THUD*

So this is the first weekend of a series of torturous weekends to come. I spent yesterday (Saturday) dreaming up a plot for my "seditious" short story for history class. I spent half the night staring at a blank screen, urging creative sentences out of my fingertips. But they wouldn't budge. I thought that a horror movie break would get the juices flowing, but by 2am, I've only typed about half a page, and half of that half is the author's note, which isn't really part of the short story itself. Right now it's almost 3pm. I have finished two whole pages already. The only problem is that that's not yet half of the story.

Argh. How am I gonna finish this and finish another paper (for Philo) by tomorrow morning? Unless I cut my horror movie class. But I absolutely love that class. It's the only class that gets me excited about Mondays. No, I'm not gonna cut that class. I will finish this no matter what! Come on, inspiration! Hit me now!

Brand New Day

Still sleepy, and I have to stay in school the whole day today. 10:30am-7:30pm! Goodness. And I've only had like, 4 hours of sleep. Hmm. Maybe after this post I'll catch a 30-minute nap. I can't do proper research with my head like this: numb and refusing to function.

I wish I'd have a full hour of inspiration. You know, one where it'd just hit me and I'd finish a ton of work in that span of time. 'Coz right now it's just...blah. I wanna finish everything, but it's like nothing's coming out...

So anyway, I promised myself yesterday that I'm gonna be miserable only until last night. (The last couple of posts would give you a hint of what I'm talking about) From today on, I'm not gonna care about that anymore. It's just... too much. It's too much to handle right now, especially with all the panic of finishing the thesis and racing to pull up my grades before the semester ends, which only has a month and two weeks left in it. I'm excited as well as terrified right now, the former because it's gonna be sembreak soon, the latter because the defense date is coming fast. So I don't think I can take any more agony. I might have a nervous breakdown. If it happens, it happens. I don't care anymore. Bahala na. Bahala na rin siya. I'm just gonna get on up and try to be a good student and get my grades up and enjoy the last days of my college life.

I'm still sick of being single but what am I gonna do? Maybe I'm just destined to be alone forever. Maybe I'm just repulsive, I don't know. Some ask me why being single bothers me so much. They tell me there's no need to hurry because I'm still young, etc. Some, who are also single, ask me the same thing. They can't understand me because they're single like me, no boyfriend since birth too, but it doesn't really bother them.

Well, it's not that I'm desperate or that I have some sort of deadline to meet. It's just that after falling in-like with someone and not have those feelings reciprocated hurts. To have that happen to me three times in the span of 8 years simply tells me that there is something innately unlikeable about me. Or maybe I'm just placed into this world to be everybody's friend and nothing more. And it also doesn't help that I've got friends (really close friends, more like sisters really, whom I love to bits) who, when they get a crush on someone, eventually that someone will like them back. That happens to them all the time. So combine all of those reasons and you'd get what I feel. But the most painful thing of all is hoping. Because at some point, when you like someone so much, you begin to hope that the feeling is mutual. You'd wish it were. I mean, it could be, right? It happens to other people (i.e. my friends) so it's actually possible in this world to have one person return another person's feelings. And then it doesn't happen. So the only conclusion I could derive from my experience is that there is something seriously wrong with me, that's why I'm 21 and single since birth.

However, a line from Lifehouse's Whatever It Takes goes like this:

You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me

I do love myself. That's what I think anyway. Maybe I should love myself more.

F this whole thing. I'm sick of it. I'm beginning to think falling in love is overrated. F it all, I'm going back to bed. Screw the meeting.

Spot On, David.

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away
Goin' away

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away

David Archuleta - Crush

2 More Months 'Til Supernatural 4

I have no life now. Lol. Waiting for the next season is sheer torture, so right now I'm filling the empty spaces with classic horror films like Night of the Living Dead, Children of the Corn, and Hellraiser. I also bought chick flicks like A Knight's Tale, It Could Happen to You, Ghost, and Cruel Intentions. Since I have two more days of wonderful nothingness at my disposal, I'm gonna have a mini horror fest of my own. I have The Craft, Practical Magic and Beetlejuice here. That's gonna be fun, especially with one big bucket of popcorn. Mmm!

So last night, while I was feeling giddy because of all the free time (which I actually have to spend studying and doing thesis, but you know me, procrastinator), I decided to be a little creative and indulge my Supernatural craving.

Here's the result:


Hahaha. And this one is my LJ userpic:



I painstakingly re-watched one of the episodes (3.14, I think) and slow motioned everything just to be able to snapshot good scenes of the Winchester bros. There actually are some other nice pics that I'm gonna turn into banners/icons later when I feel like being creative again.

Summerslam 2008

Happens tomorrow! Yey! One more good thing to add to my lovely long weekend. What excites me most is the return of the Undertaker. Man, he's been gone what, 2 months? And those 2 months, for me, rendered Smackdown barely watchable, if it weren't for Jeff Hardy being there. Lol. The whole Edge-Vickie thing is just... bleugh. It's a really weird storyline. Not convincing at all. That's the kind of storyline that repels audience. I have several friends who used to love watching WWE as much as I do who don't anymore because they feel like it's gotten "too fake". I mean, yeah, everybody knows that everything in WWE is kayfabe. Everything's made up, even how the match ends and all that crap. But I've been watching it since I was what, 4 or 5, and I'm now 21, and I really believe that the past kayfabe-ness is more realistic. I don't know why, maybe past wrestlers are just better actors. But as I said, storylines like that of Edge and Vickie really ruin things. I mean, they did a similar thing with Triple H and Stephanie McMahon, right? That was way more believable. And if I may revert to RAW, the thing with Santino and Beth Phoenix, although I think it's kinda cute, really comes across as something they're pushed into doing. Even the fake kissing looks really fake, unlike the Jeff Hardy + Trish Stratus thing which looked really natural even if it's totally fake.

Ah, this is why I want to be a creative writer. I wanna revamp the whole storyline-making process and make it as good as the good ol' days of Stone Cold and The Rock and the first DX. Those days were a hell of a lot of fun.

Oh yeah, and they're actually gonna show this in cinemas here, that's why they're not gonna have a morning showing of it on JackTV. Crap. The one time we get a Monday off with a PPV, that's the time they don't show it in the morning. I don't wanna pay 300php for this. Only Wrestlemania is worth that. Now I have to wait until nighttime to watch it. Argh. Well at least we get it for free!

Compatibility Quiz

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Seriously?!

I'm more like Dean?!

Can't believe it.

Oh well, Dean's hot. But I'll always be Sammy's girl. :p

Wait, so if I'm like Dean, then doesn't that mean that Sam and I should be compatible because he and Dean get along so well?

I was very very very tempted to take this quiz ten more times, just to see what the other results are, if there actually is a You are Very Compatible with ____. 'Coz I've read the comments where other quiz-takers posted their results and I didn't see anybody get more than three shaded hearts for each guy.

Are You Compatible With The Supernatural Boys?

Scarefest

Sana may ganito dito noh? They're gonna have the Ghost Hunters International crew there! And the actual Jason Voorhees of past Friday the 13th movies! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! Bakit walang horror stuff na pwedeng attendan dito sa Pinas? This is why I'm so thankful for my Horror Film class. :) Mr. Ty rocks!

Lifehouse in Manila = AWESOME!!!

I just came home from the concert. Man, it was short but sweet. It lasted for only an hour and a half but it was worth every painful penny. They sang about 10-12 songs, I wasn't able to keep count because I was partly busy adjusting my camera which could only record 4 minutes of video (I don't know why, it was 500mb), and partly screaming my lungs out.

Jason and the rest were simply magnificent. They were very energetic, running and jumping around the stage. They really looked like they were having fun with us. The whole coliseum was really pumped up. The house was packed to the brim. I actually vacated my seat and ran as near to the stage as the big thugs would allow me. Haha. I got to the fifth row, I think. Even though I didn't know the lyrics to all their songs, I just jumped along with the people beside me. Marvelous. I think I sweat off my whole lunch.

They sang my most favoritest song in the world, Hanging by a Moment. I guess it's pretty obvious that they're gonna sing it because it's their first hit ever here in the Philippines (or was it Sick Cycle Carousel? Basta.). They also sang You & Me (okay, stop saying duh). I also wished they'd perform Everything. But they didn't. Sigh. It's one of the...I don't know, it's a "swelling song". You know, the one that starts low and slow and then swells towards the end and then you unconsciously start banging your head. It was one of Smallville's Lana+Clark songs. Lol.

Anyway, I didn't get that many pictures because of the weird camera memory thing. I did get several videos though. I'm gonna work on compiling and uploading them here some time later. As of now, here are the only pics. :)

Jeff Sleeping

My computer's still on hiatus (even longer than the Undertaker's recent "banishment") so I'm using my brother's laptop. He's in the background watching Friends...or whatever.

Anyway, I've given up on reading about the Japanese occupation of the Philippines. I'll do that tomorrow morning. If I get up early, which is unlikely. So I just researched about the current whereabouts of Bobby Lashley (one of my fave wrestlers) and of course, my childhood hero, the Undertaker.

So I found out that Lashley is no longer with WWE. I know it should have been obvious because he's been missing from the ring for like, almost a year now. I just thought that he had a really really bad injury that needed a year to completely heal or something. I was really hoping he'd come back. Oh well. As long as he's happy whatever he's doing right now then that's cool with me. I do hope to see him competing somewhere else though.

I'm starting to wonder about the working conditions in WWE. Well maybe the corporate side isn't so bad (or maybe it's worse!) than the performing side (is that the right term?). It seems like there are a lot of superstars who quit because they were "maltreated" or something. In Lashley's official site www.BOBBY-LASHLEY.net, they said something about the reason why he left. if you remember, Lashley got injured in a match with Mr. Kennedy. That was around August 2007. So he needed surgery and 4 months off. He was scheduled to come back in December but he wasn't contacted by Vince McMahon when the time was nearing. So that kinda frustrated him, and then there was another one about his girlfriend who's a Diva about refusing to do a storyline. So I guess that and other things added up and led to his quitting. So there. I'm just wondering what...what goes on there? I'd really love to be part of the WWE Creative Team some time after I graduate, but I don't know, I don't want to write something that would cause a superstar to quit like that. I've always thought that the creative writers write an assortment of storylines that are equally good, and then they hold meetings with the superstars and let them pick which one they like best or if they want to push a certain storyline, they still discuss it with the superstars involved and compromise if they need to. I thought it was a democracy over there.

So about the title. Lol. Haha. I'm still in my Jeff Hardy phase right now. I was just surfing around and I found these at Emily & Amy's Public Gallery. They have great WWE wallpapers there.

Jeff just looks too cute asleep. :)

Lifehouse... Lifehouse...

My 21st birthday is less than a week away. I can't believe I'm turning 21. I can't believed it's sandwiched between two awesome concerts: Lifehouse's and Daughtry's. I also can't believe how unbelievably non-excited I am.

I'm not gonna go into details here because I don't wanna spread depression all over the lives of the one or two people who actually read this. But there's been some stuff going on and...yeah let's just say they're very distracting and have unbelievably bad timing. Then I just learned that we have a trillion things to do as seniors. First off, I'm not sure if our thesis proposal has been approved. I really really hope it has, or else we'll waste another week or two rewriting and resubmitting and re-waiting for the results. Other groups are currently very busy doing theirs. I don't know what they're doing though. We didn't have thesis consultations for two weeks now so I have no idea what we're supposed to do next. I so think that we're gonna cram. Again. Second, as I mentioned, my friend just told me that we were supposed to attend a minimum of 4 career talks or else we get a hold order (I'm not really sure what it is, but it's just a really huge pain in the butt--can't get test permits or get grades and stuff). I wasn't able to attend the first two and I can't attend the one tomorrow because I've got doctor's appointment. So I missed marketing and entrepreneurship talks, which are the best ones. All that's left are BPO, arts & fashion, IT & Telecom, and services. I mean, what are those?! What the hell is BPO? I'd love to go to the arts & fashion though. Third, well, there's the general suckiness of schoolwork. Group works, reports, midterms in two weeks, org stuff, yearbook photos...

Sigh.

I just... I don't know anymore. I feel like there's just too much going on and so many things to do. But sometimes I feel like I'm not even doing anything! Which is the case most of the time. But still. I don't know. I'm just overwhelmed with everything. I don't know why.

Anyway, I'm in a YM conference right now and I have no idea what to contribute to the discussion. I just keep asking stupid questions. Stupid stupid questions. I hope they don't kill me for it. I'll try to contribute something. Maybe later this week. Lol.

So I'm downloading Lifehouse's latest album to cheer myself up. I'd really love to buy the actual CD though. I want a complete Lifehouse collection. Lol. Hanging by a Moment is the best song ever. I would cry when they perform that. I know I will. I've always wondered about the people who cry during concerts. I get really excited, yeah, but not to the point of tears. But I just know that that song will send me weeping. Better brings some tissue.

Feeling Sick

I'm not feeling very well right now. Fever hasn't really come on yet, but my throat has been scratchy since last night so that usually means that I'm getting toncilitis again. The weather isn't helping too. There can be mornings that are extremely hot and then it will rain hard during the afternoon. There are times when it's just gonna rain on and off all day like awhile ago. I really can't predict the weather, and most of the time I forget to bring an umbrella so I end up having to walk in the rain to get to my next class.

My head's starting to hurt a little bit now. Great. And I have 8 chapters to memorize tomorrow for my long test in History on Wednesday.

Wait a minute, it already is tomorrow.

Argh. I gotta go to sleep. But I've just woken up from a long nap about three hours ago so right now I'm not ready for bed yet. I hope I do feel better in a few hours because besides the gazzilion pages of readings I have to go through, I also have to draw about a dozen scenes for a short video for my school org. And I have to photoshop things. And I have to finish the script for the video. And I have to make a powerpoint presentation for the general assembly.

I have no idea how I'm gonna do all that in a day while I am sick.

However, I found something that made me feel a little bit better.

As mentioned in my previous post, I'm in a Jeff Hardy phase. Still am. I actually tuned out during Philosophy awhile ago (which is something I rarely ever do because the lessons are hard to follow) because of him. Just daydreaming, you know. Girl stuff.

Look for him for my annual year-end 10 hottest guys list. :) Randy Orton may get bumped off the top spot this year.

Anyway, I found this pic of Jeff. As the original poster of this pic in a forum said, he is "insanely adorable".

He really is.




















I never noticed that he has dimples before. Oh man. *melts*

I can't wait 'til Friday when I get to see him again in Smackdown.

I have no life.

Skittles and Jeff Hardy

I was surfing the net last night, partly researching for my thesis, partly searching for whatever I could find. I just saw Night of Champions a few hours earlier, and the WWE Draft 2008 two days back so my head was still quite full of WWE. So while reading a pretty long pdf file about persuasion theories, I suddenly decided to look for WWE fanfics.

I know, it's weird. About a month ago, I didn't even know those existed. But hey, they were there. So I looked for Jeff Hardy fics. I don't know why. I just really really admire him and his acrobatics and his multi-colored hair. I guess I've unwittingly developed a crush on him or something. Lol.

Anyway, the fics I found were mostly about John Cena. Like 15 out of 20 fics per page are about John Cena. If only it were two years ago, I would've devoured all of it. Haha. So I found a couple of Jeff fics, but regrettably, a paragraph into those works and I'm already bored outta my wits. There was one that kind of held my attention for a bit, but it's like the author's main mode of sustenance is cursing. Every other word is a cuss word. Pity, I actually found the first chapter quite funny.

After a few more fics, I stumbled upon this really cute and hilarious one shot, Feeling Skitty. This is by far the best Matt and Jeff fic I've read, even if it's only like, a page long. It's so cute and funny! And it actually made me go buy Skittles at the grocery today. Lol! :)

Oh, and I just found out that Jeff is already married. Yey for him and her, sniff sniff for me. :( And I saw this preview of a The Hardy Show episode, and Jeff pissed himself! He filmed himself pissing himself. It was really disgusting but a little bit funny too. Yeah, I'm a bit weird. His wife didn't look too happy. Haha. It was such a huge turn off for me though. But I still love him because he's insane. :)

David Cook WINS!!!

My head still hurts because of all the screaming I did awhile ago when Seacrest said "COOK!" after taking his sweet time to look at the result card.

I seriously did not expect that David Cook will win. I mean, yeah, I'd love for him to win, but last night's show scared me because little David really brought it on. His first song (the one originally by Elton John) did give me shivers. I was waiting for DC to bring out something like Billie Jean or Always Be My Baby. His performances were alright, but there wasn't that certain "kick" he usually had.

So while the two Davids stood there, side by side, waiting for their fate, I was all nauseous and at the same time preparing myself, figuring out what my reaction would be if they say Archuleta won.

I totally thought DA will win!

I am so glad Cook won. I mean, for the first time since I started watching AI (started with season 3), it's the first time that the one I'm actually rooting for won. He deserved it. All of it.

Don't get me wrong, David Archuleta is a fabulous singer. He has a wonderful voice, but he's too boyband-ish for me. If I were 17 now, I would've been rooting for him. He would fit perfectly in Westlife, I swear. Simon would be glad, that's one of his bands and they're short one member. Lol. It's just that little David sings ballads all the time. I had my boyband days, believe me, I still have posters in my closet to prove that, but too much ballads is just...too much. When DA sings upbeat songs it just isn't as good as his ballads. Versatility is what he lacks. Although I do agree that he could sing a phone book and it would be lovely, but he's gonna sing a ballad phone book. However, with a little more experience, I bet he'd be great.

Still, for me, David Cook is the best this season. It's time for a rocker to win! Lol. This is the guy that can sing absolutely anything. He made me like Always Be My Baby! He can remake arrangements to suit him. He never had an awful performance. All his "not great" performances were at least above average. He took risks, and they all paid off. He's original. He's talented. He's basically just the greatest.

I read somewhere where the author thinks DC just sounds like every other rocker out there. Fine, rockers have that signature raspy grungy voice, but that doesn't mean he sounds like all of them. That's like saying Little D sounds like every other boyband/balladeer out there (which I think is not true. I could totally tell if it's DA that's singing). What I like about DC is that yeah, he has that rough side to his voice, but he has that tender side too, which can be heard in his rendition of Music of the Night. Anyone who can come close to the Gerard Butler's version deserves the title of awesome. He doesn't just scream, he can turn on a sort of falsetto during high notes. He's just really well rounded as a musician and a great guy according to Simon.

The only thing I'm worried about is that he's gonna be tied down to the AI contract now. I hope his first album won't suck. Well, he could always do what Kelly Clarkson did and "break away" in his second album. Lol.

Anyway, good luck to both Davids, really. They're the best top 2 since Bo and Carrie, and I wish they both have tremendous careers and not fade into oblivion like other Idol contestants.

So... Ano Na?

Lintik talaga wala akong magawa dito. As in. Sana nasa bahay nalang ako nag DVD marathon o nagdownload ng latesst episodes diba. Marami rami pang Ghost Hunters yun papanoorin ko, tapos di ko pa tapos idownload yun latest Smallville, Supernatural, Ugly Betty, and Ghost Hunters. Epal. Eh pag uwi ko nandun na si Koko so agawan nanaman sa net yun. Whek. Ang bagal bagal pa naman ng net sa bahay. Aysus.

Sana nga talaga tapos na ako dito. Sana hanggang this week nalang ako. Ayoko na talaga, it's so boring na. I'd rather be a bum at home! At least I'm enjoying myself and my last summer as a student kesa andito ako, oo nga may net, pero ang dami daming taong umaaligid! Tapos may danger pa na biglang sumipot boss ko so mabibitin itong sinusulat ko. Shet talaga. Ala-una palang! Meron pa akong 5 hours na kelangan palipasin! Walanghiya!

So anyway, pampalipas ng oras... I'm surfing around checking our red carpet photos of AI7 people. Seryoso, ganun na talaga ako kaborad.

And look what I found!!!




















The Cooks!

They actually look good together... (pretends na hindi nagseselos)








..........iphophotoshop ko mukha ko jan! Mwahahahahaha!

One of the Whatever Moments at Work

So far, today has been a surprisingly wonderful day! I got to work 6 minutes late (this is the fifth time I've been late, and this is the latest by far. we do have a 10-minute leeway though so I guess that's ok, but I really do try to be on time). I was kinda bummed about that because I really don't like being late, it's just that I fell asleep after having breakfast and woke up at 8:22AM! Reminder to self: NEVER SLEEP WITHOUT SETTING THE ALARM CLOCK.

So my boss won't be here the whole day which is cool 'czuse I don't really feel like working today. I will do some designing later though, when I have absolutely nothing else to do. Right now I'm busy blogging and downloading stuff. Haha. I have 7 hours to go before I have to go back to my snail-paced DSL. It's about as fast as a really good dial up. Argh.

I just wish my brother would lend me this computer for another day after he comes back, just for me to finish all the downloads here. I can't very well install uTorrent to the office laptop right? As I am installing Limewire here. Haha. I might as well download songs too.

Okay, I promise I will work seriously starting 1PM. I have two more hours to bum.

So yesterday was Labor Day, and our swimming trip pushed through after all. I was a hairbreadth away from giving up last night when my mom told me that she would also be going somewhere so she's really gonna ask the driver to come in. I thought he was supposed to have a day off. So yey, we had transportation!

I brought this huge ass ancient cooler with lots of ice and drinks. Swimming could really get someone hungry and thirsty. I don't know why but we only finished a 1.5 bottle of Pepsi, a couple of bottles of water and a sall bottle of Coke Zero. I guess we drank too much pool water? EEEWWW.

I rediscovered that I could swim yesterday. I could actually be out of reach of the sides and survive. Nothing fancy though. I just let myself float, and when I did, I just kind of moved my arms up and down and I actually went to some direction. Haha. I did inhale water often though. It hurt but oh well. At least it was cloudy and cool (thanks to Mel n Sar!) It's the best weather to go swimming for me. But I still prefer night swimming!

And after that, we ate. Dennie made tacos and barbecue. It was awesome. I absolutely love her tacos! If only I could've brought home the leftover. Haha. It;s that good. And Grace made fantastic cookies! They're big like the ones at Starbucks but wau way better. We couldn't get enough of them! It melts in your mouth! I wish she'd give me some for my birthday. Haha.

After we've polished off our plates, we laid back beside the pool and just...chilled. We talked about whatever and everything else. We even guessed which one of us is going to get married first. All I can say is that it's definitely not going to be me. I may as well be the last. I don't wanna get married soon! The earliest that I want to get married is 28 years old, no sooner. I still have a lot that I want to do. I wanna go places with my friends. I don't wanna lose my identity yet! I wanna be like the girls from Sex and the City. Free and fabulous. I mean, I do wanna find love. And based on my almost 21 years of experience, love doesn't want to find me. So how could I get married any time soon right? I don't even have someone to marry yet! I don't even have anyone to fall in love with!

Although there's Jon Avila. He goes to church every Sunday (so I've heard). That's the kind of guy I'd wanna marry! And he's cute. Haha.

Wasting Time

It's exactly 5:33 in the time card puncher thingy. I can't wait to get outta here.

So okay, tomorrow is Labor Day and I have no idea if I have to go to work tomorrow or if I can relax at home. My boss hasn't come back yet and I think I'd be outta here already when she does. I have to text her about this. I'd be really bummed if I had to come in tomorrow. It's a freaking holiday! I don't know if it is a working or a non-working holiday, but I don't care, because I'm not getting paid anyway!

Maybe it would be a good thing if I had to come in tomorrow. I mean, that would be one day closer to ending this right? But I'm looking forward to hanging out with my friends, although our swimming/picnic trip is in danger of being canceled (if it isn't already) because of lack of cars. But still, I'd love to kick back and watch DVDs all day tomorrow. And I hope it rains too. That would just make my day.

Anyway, for the past couple of hours, I've been redesigning my Mother's Day promo materials. My boss's brother is their brand manager so he checks my designs and everything. i have to say, I learned more from him today than I have the past week. His comments are actually helpful.

Time: 5:39 PM. I'm still here. Haha. I have three Ghost Hunters International downloading now, and one is about to be done in 20 minutes. I'm just gonna wait for that while I pass the time rambling on about senseless things.

I forgot to call Summit Media today. But if it's true that I actually have to spend 9 more days here, I'd be done by May 14, and I'm scared that it might be too late for me to work at Summit. But I'd really love to, even if i spend all May there. At least i'd still have one week in June to be a bum, and I had the first week of April for that too.

I do miss being a bum. Seriously.That's been my career all my life and now I find myself waking up at 6:30 in the morning every weekdays and actually feel like I'm used to it. I've been doing this for exactly three weeks now and I'm tired of it. I don't wanna anymore...

What if I had to do this every single day for the rest of my life?

Yeah, pretty soon I'd have to. I only have a year of school left. I'm gonna get shoved into the real world. I am TERRIFIED. I don't want my life to be like this every single day. For 9 hours I sit in front of a computer and do whatever. Write letters and design flyers and posters in this cramped little room with a banshee for a companion. Seriously. I mean, my workmates here are nice and all, and maybe it's my time of the month, but there are two here that got into my nerves today. They are so loud! Luckily the first one already went home. The other one is still here, and it's killing me. She talks to herself, LOUDLY. Like, shouting. I wanted to strangle her awhile ago.

OK, so I'm evil. But I really value my privacay, and there's just none of that here. And she is especially noisy today. But maybe it's just that time of the month.

Inhale. Exhale. I'm trying to calm myself down and try not to think of my grumbling stomach. I have less than 10 minutes to go before the clock sings its wonderful tune of freedom.

Let me try to distract myself.

So last night, I watched the latest episode of Supernatural. It was weirdly funny. Sam and Dean were supposedly accidentally included in a reality show very much like Ghost Hunters (the fake show was even called Ghostfacers! I don't even know what to make of that. Is it mocking GH? I love GH!). It was funny. Answer to the episode's problem: GAY LOVE. Between a living human being and a ghost.

Time 5:56. Yey!

Harry Potter Exhibit!!!

This Harry Potter exhibit will be touring around the world starting next year. It will feature authentic costumes and props from the movies. The tour will last for five years and will go to ten or maybe more cities.

Read the whole press release or visit the Harry Potter: The Exhibit site.

I'm so excited! Okay, I know that it's a long shot for them to come here in the Philippines but hopefully they'd come to a nearby country. I am seriously going to fly there just to see that exhibit!!!

Wow, it's been a long time since I've unleashed my harry-potter-a-holic side. I've missed it! Haha.

Anyway, since I'm in a Harry Potter mood now, updates:

• November 21st : Release date of Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince movie
• Early 2009 : Harry Potter Exhibition
• Some time between December 15, 2009 and June 30, 2010: Opening of Harry Potter Theme Park
• November 2010: Tentative release date of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1
• May 2011 : Tentative Release Date of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2

I'm so excited!!!!! Long live the Harry Potter Fandom!!!

The Time Card Puncher Clock Thingy Celebrates With Me

It really does!

In the morning, when the clock strikes a new hour, it does nothing. It just turns to the new hour. But when it hits noon, it sings. Seriously! It emits this really cute melody. It's like it's saying, "Wee another hour closer to chillin' at home!"

Right now I have 5 more hours to kill. I've done everything they asked me to do, and a little extra too. And now... I wait.

My boss went out with the catering crew. I have no idea what time she'd be back. I hope not before 4PM though. That way I'd have 3 more hours of total nothingness, just waiting for my downloads to be done. Honestly, DSL connection here is awesome. I've only started almost 4 hours ago and 2 are already done. If this were at home, it would've taken me all day. Argh. Okay, I'll shut up about our sucky internet connection at home.

So okay, I have this friend. She was my Theology 131 classmate. She IMed me last night and told me she was in Germany! I was like, "What the hell are you doing there?!" I thought she's on vacation. Then she tells me that she's going to be there for a whole year to study German.

Man, how awesome is that?

I dream of that. She's staying with a foster family and she has a private tutor to help her with her transition into a real German school. I mean, whoa. That's like, the stuff of romantic comedies/chick flicks!

Okay, my romantic side is coming out. I gotta shove it away again.

But really, isn't it awesome? I saw pictures of her and her foster family and their house. Her foster siblings are so adorable!!!! And their house. Actually, their bathroom is just...wow. Colorful. I dream of a bathroom like that. And they actually have a lawn! And a big one at that. And a greenhouse too!

Sigh. Maybe someday I'd be able to afford to do the same. How cool would that be?

Cravings

Man, I just found out that it's that time of the month. Ugh. I thought I just had a stomach ache but there's more. Now I feel so icky and heavt and lazy and the rain outside isn't heloing in waking me up.

Right now, all I wanna be is at home under the covers enjoying the sound, smell, and the coolness that the rain brings while watching new episodes of Smallville, Ugly Betty, and Ghost Hunters. Or just continuing my Charmed marathon.

I still want that Chicken Ceasar's Salad I've been craving for a week now.

Lintik!!!

OH GOOD LORD!!

I just found out that I will be stuck in this job for 9 more days! The barista intern here asked how many hours am I rewuired to complete. I said 120. Then she counted the hours in my time card. She said that if I finished this day, then I would be 8 hours over. I know right. And the 9 hours I spend here each day only counts as 8, even if I don't use my 1 hour break, which sucks. I wanna go on a break today, but again I don't have money. Besides, the internet connection here is really fast so I'm taking advantage of it and downloading everything. I only have this laptop this week. The 8 days I have to come back here after this week would be spent with the office laptop which is anciet; I think it's the ancestor of every other laptop.

So okay, it's 10 AM already. 8 more hours to go. Wow. That hour went by pretty quickly. I've just finished the new press release. It's so short, only 3/4 of page and it's already Arial 12 and double spaced! I have nothing else to say about the Barista for a Day program. That's it. Take it or leave it.

Hay. Right now I'm really pissed. Pissed off and bummed. I was really looking forward to being free within next week but no. I still have two more weeks, EXACTLY two more weeks to go! Argh! I'm going to go crazy here! In this hell hole!!!

I'm sorry for ranting, but this is just a seriously boring job. Yeah I know it's very relaxed and all, but I'm supposed to be learning something! And I don't feel like I am! I mean, I have learned a few things, but I don't know, I guess I just had it all worked out in my head how my OJT would be like. I even designed my own business card.

Man. I so need something to get my mind off of this shit later. Luckily it's Wednesday so there's AI later. I'm gonna hear David Cook's wonderful voice again. Yey!

Ok, that made me feel a tad better, but still I'm pissed. Fuck this shit talaga! I wanna get outta here. Shit!

Analog Heart

Here it is finally, Analog Heart by David Cook.

Enjoy!


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I'm an hour away from going home! Yey! I just wonder, why is it when I'm this near from freedom when the work comes? I'm asked to make another press release. Not that the first one sucked or anything. Well, okay maybe it did.

Today was my first meeting with a PR agent, which was not what I envisioned it to be. I thought they were gonna be all corporate and everything, which is why I chose to wear this crisp white shirt someone gave my mom. It looks so nice and corporate. But Lo and behold, it creases easily! I'd have to iron it every hour if I wanted to look crisp the whole day. When I got out of the car this morning it's already creased. Argh. So much for looking sharp.

Sp yeah, the meeting was really short, like, 10 minutes? It was very relaxed too.I guess that's because she's a classmate of my boss'. She said that a lot of cafes are opening right now so all of them are sending press releases about their opening. So I guess the first one I made wasn't technically garbage. It's just that a lot of people are writing the same thing that it wouldn't stand out anymore. Hey, PR class said that write something that's newsworthy and our opening is definitely newsworthy, with the lion dance and all. But I'm happy I learned something today: Be unique.

I actually learned something today! How cool is that?

However, I'm still hunting for my next ojt. I already called GMA and they said that they aren't accepting any more practicumers. So that sucks. So now I have my eyes on Summit Media again. I sent my resume once more but to a new contact person. They already updated their website and placed a contact specially for OJTs. Haha. That's good. This time around I'd really call. I so wanna work there.

I also want a job that would require me to give out calling cards. Haha!

Anyway, I managed to kill half an hour with this post. Man, I love this cafes DSL. 4 of the 5 episodes I'm downloading are already done, and the last one would no doubt be done just in time before I go home. This rocks. I'm gonna download everything here from now on. This would be like the pay that they don't give me. Lol.

Maybe tomorrow I'll actually download whole seasons. Haha!

Backlash 2008 and whatever else

So I'm at work again right now and my boss is away so I'm making the most of her 1-hour absence. Haha. She's a nice gal but pretty strict.

I finished everything that she asked me to design and I already sent it to her and her brother for approval. Hopefully they approve of them. I don't wanna have to do those again. I even made choices for them. But if they make me do that again, then I'd have something to do! Yey.

So last night was WWE Backlash 2008. I'm really glad that they didn't put it in pay per view anymore! Three hours of huge guys kicking each other's asses for FREE! Yey. That's what I call a treat, and food for my passive-aggressive side. Haha. Violence ration for the week.

So, what can I say about Backlash this year? Well... I miss Jeff Hardy. Haha. I haven't seen him in a long time. What happened to him anyway?

So, I'm glad Matt Hardy finally won the USA Championship. It's been a long time coming! How long have he and MVP been going at it? I can't even remember. He deserved it. And MVP is just annoying with his nose tape and Power Ranger suit.

For Batista and Shawn Michaes... That is a weird match up for me. But I love them both. So HBK won... I don't know how to react to that. they're both really good wrestlers but of course HBK is more seasoned. I really don't know. And they're fighting over Ric Flair! I mean... what???

Although I did cry all throughout Ric and HBK's Wrestlemania match. Seriously. The whole 30 minutes (or was i 1 hour?)

For Undertaker vs. Edge... All I wanna say is that the Undertaker can never lose unless he's cheated on. And I'm really curious about that new submission hold of his. What is it called? And does it really cause internal bleeding? I mean, that is serious stuff, isn't it? I know people will say, "But WWE is fake! it's all an act!" Is the bleeding through the mouth fake too? Did they somehow manage to keep a ketchup packet in their mouth and open it up during the submission hold? But if the bleeding was real... then isn't it dangerous? Being locked in that hold once would be harmful enough. But what about Edge who got stuck in it twice?

Last but not the least, the fatal four-way. Triple H is absolutely the most deserving to win. I'm sad that they're not DX anymore because he and HBK were a riot. I wonder if they're gonna have a go on each other again.

John Cena really has to discover tanning lotion or tanning booths or something.

Counting Down

I actually have something to do right now but I'm not in the mood. Haha. I'm really sleepy. It's already 4PM, which means that I've spent exactly 120 hours in this place. But I still have 2 hours to go through before I can go home and watch wonderful DVDs. I watched Meet Joe Black last night. I really love that movie. I don't know, it's just really nice and funny and weird and quirky and glamorous. And not to mention Brad Pitt. That's reason enough to go see it. Lol! But it has a unique story.

Maybe tonight I'll watch Practical Magic. I haven't seen it in a really long time and I'm glad that I found the DVD. It wasn't marked down like the other ones I bought which hurt my wallet but I had to have it's a collectible! The other ones I bought were The Craft and Beetlejuice. I know, it's all cult movies. Andthen Meet Joe Black is about Death on a vacation. Haha. Kinda twisted but I like it. I was even looking for the complete 2 seasons of Supernatural, but I decided to just wait for the whole series to end (hopefully this will be years later) so I could get the complete complete set, maybe in a special box or something. Lol.

I had my first "presentation" at work today. I hate that word. Presentation. It just drives me to panic mode. My boss went, "Okay guys, let's discuss promos for Mothers' Day. Merong ipepresent si Steph na proposal." and I went, "Ha?! Meron?!"

Of course I didn't write it down in my resume, but I have a fear of public speaking/presenting in public. I know that whatever job I'd get in the futurewould surely require that, but I really can't shake it off. At least today it was a bit informal so I just talked about what I thought of doing for that day. I wasn't really uber confident in my idea. I mean, I thought it was a pretty good idea, but all I've done so far is present ideas like those in class and wait for the teacher's reaction. If she doesn't like it, no harm done. Well, besides to my grade. But still. This time however, they're really going to implement it! What if I single-handedly cause this establishment to fall to the ground? Or if my ideas just sounded stupid? I mean, i don't know how to do costing. I don't know how much their raw materials cost. And numbers hate me so I rarely attempt to do math. I just... you know. Come up with ideas. Then I just let them look through them and see if we can implement it without going bankrupt. Another problem is that in school, we were used to making ads for big companies. But this coffee shop is tiny and can't afford all that promo jazz. So I had to adapt my thinking process into small scale business. Which sounds a bit awesome, but it just means that I have to be as cheap as possible with the freebies and stuff.

So I actually have a deadline! Banner, brochure, and shelf display announcement designs by tomorrow. Haha! And I still have time to blog, right? I've actually made 3 banner designs, 2 shelf display announcement designs too. And I still have one and a quarter hour to finish all this. And tomorrow pa. So what will I do tomorrow?

Ooooh! A staff meeting! Cool.

I'm running out of collared shirts to wear, you know. I've actually repeated some. Hopefully nobody noticed, right? I mean, I did wait two weeks before repeating. My mom's closet only has so much collared shirts, some even have missing buttons and all.

So anyway, I have to sneak-post this onto here again before my boss comes back in here.

1 hour 'til freedom and some food 'cause I'm starving and they don't give me free food or coffee here!!!

I FUCKING MISS HIGH SCHOOL

[07:13] deutzy_gurl13: hi henny!
[07:36] fudtripers: hey steph
[07:37] deutzy_gurl13: happy lunch! sorry storbo, i'm at work, really bored.
[07:38] fudtripers: you're working already???
[07:38] fudtripers: times have really passed!
[07:38] fudtripers: sa biz niyo?
[07:38] deutzy_gurl13: haha hindi pa, practicum pa lang. ayoko pa magwork noh hehe.
[07:38] deutzy_gurl13: dont worry di ka pa ganun katanda!
[07:39] fudtripers: hahaha
[07:41] deutzy_gurl13: sige nanga, magpepretend na akong nagtatrabaho. baka bigla bumali boss ko. hehe. c u soon sana!
[07:41] fudtripers: sure! inom tayo. hehehe
[07:42] fudtripers: take care

As usual, I'm really bored right now. I'm only waiting for my boss to come back so we could meet to discuss plans for Mothers' Day and stuff. I already called up Philippine Daily Inquirer like she asked me to, but they scheduled to meet with me on Friday to discuss details of their offer. Which is weird, because I just want to ask a few things about it. I guess the dude who handles that is super-kaduper busy. I'm not really sure if they're just gonna call on Friday or they're gonna go here, in person, which is really frightening because first of all, I'm already scared when I was asked to call them. I have low self-esteem like that. And for me to meet with them in person?! I mean, the questions that I prepared to ask weren't really difficult to answer. Yikes. What have I gotten myself into?

Anyway, so while my boss went back home to I don't know, have lunch and take a nap maybe, I'm taking the time to go online, check my mail, and maybe chat with a few people. And of course blog. So as usual, nobody's online this time of day. They're probably out having a fun vacation, bumming around, or like me, stuck at work in the middle of a glorious summer. The last one I'm gonna have, I might add, before I have to work for real, with pay and all.

So I found a couple of friends online, and also my high school softball coach. He's an awesome coach, and now he's also a daddy! Well, he has been for a few years now. But when he started coaching us he was single. Oh what time has done.

I've been kind of thinking about high school for a couple of days now, whenever I'm upstairs in the function room trying not to be bored. One thing I really miss about high school is softball. I like the game, but what I really miss about it was the camaraderie. The softball team was like a second family to me. We had fun every practice. Lots of memories were formed. Even though those Sunday practices resulted to my uneven skintone, I don't care, because I got a hell of a fun time every time we set out to that field. And the medals were cool too. It's just that, the team's chemistry was perfect. We were all crazy, even our coach. Which is proven by his "inom tayo" comment. Haha! He has been inviting us to go out for drinks for a long time now, but we never got the chance to. Hopefully this year it'll push through. Hmm. Maybe I should plan it.

Being in this job makes me feel really grown up, you know? Evcen though I'm not being paid and I know that I'd be out of this in a few days, I really got the taste of working for someone. It's scary because if I screw up, it's my life that's on the line. That's why I miss being in high school. One thing is that I was a teen back then, which kind of gives me the excuse to screw up. I can do whatever, not study, and still get decent grades. It's just easier that time. I can also remember being angsty and complaining how difficult everything was. I mean, yeah, Chinese subjects were a pain in the ass but besides that, I got to hang out with my friends almost every single day of the week. Now I'm lucky if I get to see them once a month.

Sigh. I'm actually working on my 100 things I miss most about high school. I'll post it soon. My boss is back and my ass will be fired if she catches me blogging during work! Or will she even care? Because I was completely staring into space awhile ago while she's beside me and she didn't even care. Whek. Whatever.

Three

This is indeed a day of celebration!

Since I got swamped with schoolwork the first three months of this year, I completely forgot about this special occasion:

MY BLOG'S 3RD BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLOGGIE!

I can't believe I forgot my blog's birthday. I also can't believe that it's been three years since I first posted here. Whoa.

High school has been that long ago. :(

Anyway, no time for sad faces now. Another thing to celebrate about: THIS IS MY 300th POST!!!

WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!

I know, other blogs that are three years old has way more posts than 300. I mean, it's a toddler blog already. I will really try to post a lot more often than this. At present, I average 100 posts a year. Kinda pathetic, right? To think that about a quarter of those posts are seriously useless. Haha!

So there.

And last but not the least, the last thing I'm happy about today is that I'm 5 hours away from completing my minimum 120 hours practicum hours!!!!!

Actually, I'm really 3 hours away from completing it, but I can't get out of work early so I have to stay a couple more hours. I do wanna take a break though. I wanna get out of here for an hour. But the thing is, where will I go? First of all, I don't have a car. Second, I don't have money. I have a hundred pesos in my wallet and I have to make that last until the weekend. I could ask for this week's allowance though, but since World War 100 broke out at home last night, I'm gonna let the opposing powers to cool off a bit and ask for my allowance maybe tomorrow or the next day.

And one more thing is that I don't know when this practicum will end. Sure, I've completed the minimum hours but they said that they're gonna keep me until May. I'm hoping that means they're gonna let me go by May 2. 'Coz I really wanna get another job that's a bit more active and maybe one that pays, even just a small allowance.

So there. 3 celebrated things for my 300th post on my blog's 3rd birthday! Yey!

Analog Heart by David Cook

No, this won't get him kicked out of the competition. In fact, Analog Heart became the top downloaded album in Amazon.com this year, until they pulled it out. Don't know why. I just got all these infos from several news site and blogs. They don't know either. It's kinda weird 'coz someone mentioned that other contestants like Kristy Leigh Cook also has an album out there somewhere. It's just that all their albums are independently released. Someone even said that David burned the CDs himself. It's weird why his was the only one pulled out.

Anyway, I accidentally came across Don't Say A Word while I was looking for the studio version of Music of the Night. I thought it was a joke or something but I got curious so I downloaded it. And man, am I glad I did! It was awesome! No wonder David kicks ass every single night! His experience really paid off (he is/was part of a band named Axium which was his high school band, and they played with Maroon 5, Fountains of Wayne, and Smash Mouth already). His gig days really polished him off. And ANALOG HEART is proof that he's great from the start (it's his solo album, btw). He even has a degree on graphic design (which I think is really cool!) but music truly is his passion.

Awesomeness.

I'm gonna place a link to my Multiply site later on because I can't seem to upload the songs. But you could easily google for them, lots of blogs have links where you can download or listen to the album. :)